I realized how my attitude towards life has changed. Before, I was like yes SUFFERING is the key. I really meant it.
Now, when I am SUFFERING, I DO NOT WANT TO SUFFER. I have become what I was always afraid of becoming.
The C word.
The C word of the bad kind…
Yes, I am in my comfort zone. This is the problem.
This is the reason for the relapses.
At one point however I was toxic towards SUFFERING. I wanted to GROW BADLY !
However I hated people with AVERAGE MINDSET.
Now, I will make sure that the suffering is not for no reason.
But for the right purpose.
My new mindset. SUFFER BUT ONLY FOR THE RIGHT PURPOSE !
I would take up internships and job positions and grind hard ! But I have realized suffering for others is not worth it. Yes, I am growing ! And I do not regret working hard for other people.
But at this point, I want to minimize suffering for other people. And embrace it FOR MY LARGER MISSION IN LIFE !!