So today I just masturbated in the afternoon at 4:30PM. I was alone at home, my mom was at our terrace and after doing the thing I was laying on my bed and then suddenly my relatives came. I got up quickly and greeted them and with them came my niece who is just 10 months old. This was the second time I saw her, she’s very cute and cuddly.
I felt very guilty while seeing her because this is the 2nd time she sees me, first time I saw her was when she was just born earlier this year and now… She was looking at me and I couldn’t make eye contact with her because I was feeling very guilty cause I just masturbated. I was hesitating to pick her up, I wanted to play with her but I just couldn’t. She deserves a good uncle which I’m not. I felt that she’s a little pure hearted soul and I’m a devilish monster and even my touch will corrupt her. I’m sorry, I’m really really sorry my love, please forgive me
Today I make a promise to myself that I won’t meet her until I become pure again.
And what’s ironic here is her father’s elder brother was the one who introduced me to porn when I was just 7-8yo.