The diary of Cubenix

Hay guys I seriously gonna need my a reminder of talking to you guys it is been crazy these few days. Oh well still sticking to all my challenges and doing great! Tomorrow is day 14 of this challenge of the 30 day 30 push-ups and that means another bring Sally up challenge will be done to up the challenge.

I hope everything is going well on your side! Thanks for the read and support and good luck stay strong and awesome!!

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Day 14 and doing great just finished the push-ups and the bring Sally up challenge! I inverted it again and had a improvement. Well the arms really get tired on the straight arm plank there I felt it as I neared my previous best and started passing it. I made it to 20 push-ups in the song then dropped out. Just ten short, but with this improvement I can hit the entire song. That’s 50 pushups!

So yeah doing great on the German I finished the course on duolingo. I have a couple of things to iron out there. As this was an on and off thing I finished it. I am gonna continue till I reach day 30 on it and then challenge myself with it more.

As for the maths I am doing great. Last night I did a recap on some algebra and man I got a little bit schooled there as I forgotten some of the rules, but I caught on quickly and did it and a I am really feeling awesome about the dreaded maths. Better as I did in school as it looked like as some crazy guy how just dropped his crayons everywhere. But yeah I think studying it on your own and the effort put in where you can focus and try it out yourself it boost your learning and motivation in to the next level!

Well that all for today gonna do more maths to finish up and then see ya tomorrow!

Good luck and stay strong and awesome!!

Well today was a chilled day today. Worked outside a bit in the yard and then it was playing games with the family! It was great fun.

Did a nice math session and a quick german now of to quickly do my push-ups for day 15 and then gonna dive into bed!

Good luck and stay strong and awesome!

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Hey guys I am back again and again. :rofl::cry:

Well haven’t chickened out of my challenges, but I have been quite about the day to day post.
Today was kinda cool and it was raining for the most of it. I love these days to chill in bed etc. Well today was a bit upside down. As I did some carpentry work to fix a cupboard which was installed a bit skew in the kitchen and fix the rubbers of my dogs dishes. I got a strange surprise as my dad was making pancakes and also we had a board game / binge series evening with the family.

Well that was awesome now for the challenges. I haven’t done it for today , but if I am finished on the forum I am gonna do them quickly. To start off today is day 21 if I am still counting correctly as I missed posting 4 days and lost count. This means 7 days have passed so it is time for the Inverted bring Sally up push-up challenge along with my 30 day push-ups challenge. I wanna beat my previous record so I hope not to let me and you guys down!

As a quick thought what would ypu guys think will make an awesome reward for completing the 30 day challenge? Just curious actually and I kinda want an idea as I don’t really know.

So yeah that’s all folks. Stay strong and awesome and good luck ! Thanks for the read and support!

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Hey guys I haven’t repoted on what happend to the challenge the other day. I have sadly not manage to beat my record on the inverted Bring Sally up challenge. I attempted it twice that evening hoping the second time is the charm, but it wasn’t and I am still happy at what I have achieved.

I manage to have done my 30 push-ups and proceeded almost directly with the challenge and did 18 additional push-ups. After having a 5 min rest I decided to attempt again and managed 20 push-ups. I achieved 68 push-ups for the day.

Yesterday the push-ups went well with a small twist in german practice. I use the app Duolingo, but ai have noticed it is boring me a bit as it isn’t a challenge sometimes. As I said I know a little bit of German and I am doing it to keep my knowledge of the language. So I jazzed things up and went through the language courses and app interface and I have managed to get the course English from the German language. And it was amazing. As I manage to only make 2 silly mistakes at the start test for the language. And it definitively is testing my German language skills.

Feel great about it. So today head to Duolingo now and then gonna do the push-ups for day 23. So on day 30 I will also commit to the bring Sally up challenge, but I still wanna know if you guys have an Idea for a reward. I have thought of a Nofap challenge I would like to introduce by then and I could need admin team…
Please let me know what you guys think!

Good luck and stay strong and awesome! Thanks for the read and support !

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Hey guys today is day 27 on my push-ups challenge and till doing great. Arms are getting more defined and the push-ups are getting much easier. I started out with 3 reps of 10 and now I push myself till as far as can go. On day 26 I have reached 25 convective push-ups. So it was amazing. It is awesome how hungry I became to do it.

With that being said I have opened a new challenge and I hope to see you guys there.

Let’s fight this thing together and let us have some fun as well

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Inspiring work man. Keep it up

Thanks @ERNOL just trying my best!

Anyways as I am just going through a few things tonight as I am excited and sad at the same time.

Sad as I have slowly realised what a monster I was and also how things are aggravating me, frustration is at its high and I don’t wanna be that guy. Plus I ripped the final point of the bandaid off of the past and I just have to let go of it as well as the person that caused so much pain in my past. I think it is best as I forgive and remove him. My nephew and the things he baught into my life.

So day 28 of the challenge. So it is Bring Sally up challenge time again whoop whoop. I cheated a bit usaually I do all the things at once, but I did my German and maths during the day and saved the best for last. For the day. So going to finish off a very good and busy day off paint jobs around the house.

That’s all folks. See ya soon thanks for the read and support and good luck stay strong and awesome!

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Hey guys day 29 today.

I am making good progress in the push-ups. Last night I was just like F***it and do all 30 push-ups in one go and I don’t know how I managed it as I said for some apparent reason with the song it is easy to do. Yeah you struggle a bit with tiredness, but you are completely driven to do it. Without the song it is a lot different it is as if you just give in and don’t care on how far you get.

But at 25 push-ups I started to feel I should stop, but in the back of my mind I was like you have done 25 once before and here you are again. It is just 5 push-ups more you can do it. With each push-up after that it was like they spoke to me.

The 1st one of the 5 said. You are strong, but tired just take a rest and admit you came this far.

The 2nd one was more like. Give in, give in, give in

The 3rd one was like, why don’t you just quit, but also you are so close why not continue.

The 4th well he became more optimistic and said you have won this already don’t stop 1 is only a number. Just do it.

You all probably know what #5 said. Well done you are amazing. Sure I was though but you were stronger and you made it to 30. Well done. And inside eventhough I felt tired and it was though mentally, but you feel amazing to beat that obstical.

I was this moring in bed, read my bible and then went on Youtube. Don’t know why but I just went on Youtube.

I habe gotten a motivational story about an eagle. The farmer raised the eagle as a chicken. Unintentionally as he had thought he rescued an abandoned egg. Well as the eagle hatched etc. It was with the chickens and well basically lived as a chicken.

The old eagle only looked up and thought the next thought when he saw an eagle soaring in the sky. " If only I was an eagle."

This is a sad story and it made me realise a few things I think we are doing wrong. As the lesson in the story is to start seeing your true self and to stop comparing yourself with others and if you realise what you are do everything in your power to soar above the rest, before it is to late.

#1. We are totally ignorant about ourselfs in what we can achieve. I also heard I think it was Martin Luther king with his speech about dreams.

We have a lot of dreams, but with these dreams we have a lot of expectations and fear. We fear the unknown of the dream, like what if we fail or what if I succeed and in either case what will others think about it/say about it.

#2. Our motivation is incorrect. I might lie about the next point, but maybe it is worthy of a thought.

You see countless guys wanna motivate and that is amazing, but instead of you can do it, it sometimes comes across as you will do it.

I was an AP for someone here in the forum. I was like the guy of you will do it motivator as I want this guy to beat it so bad, but it didn’t work.

Our motivation also should also rather be the reason why you do it. And that reason should the driving force on this journey.

If some have suggested it and you try it, then do it, but try it with all your heart. You might find the reason why you have to try it. Regardless of the benefits.

#3. A lot of things can change. Maybe it shows you what you have been missing.

Maybe that six pack abs you dreamed of or those huge bisceps you’ve been missing out. This might inspire you to do more and that is awesome. Maybe it shows you why you’ve became so desperate to fill a void within with porn and masterbation.

Start to realise this thing is more serious than just a trend or a movement. Change your attitiude and perspective of this journey.

Good luck and stay strong and awesome guys! I will chat soon again

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I really like your journey entries, this last one just got the point about this! We are rebooting, not just doing a challenge. Now you are going to totally succed.
I encourage you to write some special article when you hit 30, it will motivate other brothers on this journey.
Don’t stop now, gogogogo!

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Hey @anon15901281! Thanks man and sure thing. Man I totally don’t know what I am gonna say, but I just wanna be jumping out that bed tomorrow and just do it!

I forgot to even mention my progress on the bring Sally up challenge inverted. With all the excitement going on . After the 30 push-ups I hit 24 push-ups on the challenge. I defeated my previous record of 20. And as a special to celebrate the end tomorrow I am gonna get my rematch.

Thanks for the read and support and good luck stay strong and awesome!

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How you feeling day 30 man? Did you complete your 30 push-up challenge today?

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Hey guys. I am finally on the forum today whoop whoop!

Thanks @anon15901281 you are super awesome. I like that excitement!

Day 30.

It has been a pretty though and thought filled day as I had some serious conversations with my mom about me.

Okay yeah it sounds weird and all that as I ain’t gonna go into much detail about it, but this was a nostalgic and sad week.

I thought about what I was gonna write today as I finished the challenge a s I got excited last night to be inspired by @anon15901281 to write an article and hope not to dissapoint.

So without further do here is my thoughts on this journey.

So day 1 well it was quite awkward. As I just did the 30 push-ups without a second thought after the video I have seen on Youtube.

Well to stick to it I thought man this is just stupid and alot of guys could surely do more than me etc. Mind games where played. So on day 6 I just tried the bring Sally up challenge and succeed and found it was easy.

Reality sunk in on day 7 after my push-ups and the inversion of the challenge I was like damn man I know I could do more.

So it was pretty easy to commit weird enough and when every 7th day came it was a bit intimidating as I hunger to do more, but as I flatlined on 20 push-ups in the bring Sally up challenge well that was when reality truely sunk in and I just desperately wanted to retry and go again to do more.

Well, today I did it the 30 push-ups and flatlined again on 24 push-ups. I just said to myself I wanna do the remaining six on the song, but I will slow down and just finish overall for fun. As this was the overall objective of this. To have fun and experiment on this journey and how I progress.

So yeah I have made progress. The first week I did 10 reps of 3 sets with rest in between.

The 2nd week I pushed my limits a bit by trying to go atleast 15 reps 2 sets. I achieved this on the final parts of the week.

The 3rd week I made the decision on going till I can’t no more and continued on to the 4th and final week were I finally manage to pull of 30 straight reps. Only once but it is good enough for me!

So yeah let us get to the thoughts I mentioned. As some of you guys know I was pretty much manipulated by my nephew. It started out stupid and just a kiss, but we checked ■■■■ out together and yeahi finally concluded it this week. I said my say and goodbye. It is sad to go our separate ways, but it I think is best as I had a lot of distrust in him. I forgave him for the things he introduced in my life and told him I am a new me.

So yeah life was prerry hard in my teens. I was obsessed with having a muscular body and healthy lifestyle, but it never was ment as I just constantly started and stopped exercises.

So yeah when I joined the forum I also gave it a shot, but it passed within the same week. I retried again by trying to breath new life in the forum. Created a challenge and then I was the only participant therein and felt sorry for myself and also quit there.

I later realised I was a slave to my obsession by watching other guys making awesome progress on Youtube and probably watched a lot of flexing videos of guys. I have hoped by watching them I would desire a nice physic as well and start to train hard and I watched The biggest loser and really had a scare and even thought that it will motivate me and I would look awesome in a month or so. I had a lot of arrogance when it came to fitness as I am a pretty fit guy and well skinny and I had shots where my abs was starting to show, but as soon as I hit that level I quit as I was happy.

But yeah I gave up too quick and didn’t realise how weak I actually was and also how stupid I was for quiting. I also realised that I was a pretty weak individual as I just indured being bullied. Sure I fought back, but never let myself be taken serious and that kinda today has hurt alot as I realised I was naïve in highschool as I waited for a girl my entire high school career as she promised to be mine in senior year.

Well, I was pissed as I fell very hard for this girl. I became like jelly when she held me for the first time. It was unintentionally done as she showed me how to play guitar hero. Man, I rather focused on her rather than the game I couldn’t care less about the game.

I hanged out alot with her and her dad was awesome about us being so close, but in senior year things fell apart. Ever since then I stopped believing in myself. I have gotten casual girlfriends just to have a nice hook up( no sex), but I just felt dead.

I just stopped staying strong and didn’t really care much. Then I went to Germany. I slowly, but surely started waking up as the people I stayed with was like the parents and family I never had.

Early morning surpirses, random field trips. Cool jobs like driving a bulldozer, sure sounds stupid, but being a teen and having to drive a monster like that is all kinds of awesome. I felt loved and I felt like I want to stay there forever.

We had awesome trips going mountain biking in the mountains and forest. I started gyming doing yoga and it was amazing. Did beekeeping and it was almost like nothing was in my way no obsticals and also a man I met who passed away from cancer sadly 2 years ago he made effort so I could learn the guitar.

Man, I miss those days. Okay, now guys wonder why I mentioned it in the first place. Well I did it because I wanna explain the next point.

As I just did this challenge, my thoughts were also at the point like skip today it won’t matter anyhow to anyone. Right? I was so wrong, because if I had quited on any point in this journey I would’ve never said the following.

Why didn’t I start it earlier? I was almost like that eagle and I almost threw away alot of potential. Also through this 30 day push-ups challenge realised what was holding me back. Sure I should’ve figured it out as I succeed in rebooting, but no I just kept doubting it as I still wanted a scapegoat for my failures. It wasn’t my past, nor my circumstances. Sure, they played a role, but they only influenced myself in making bad decisions and it was part of the challenge, but the only thing is it was ME all the time. Now I have to start conquering me and my fears and unleash the potential.

As I today also saw a guy 17 years old showing his progress he asked some valuable questions and I am gonna change some of them. On a broader point to let you decide on your next move in this journey and I hope this inspires you through your journey as well.

You guys probably wonder what is next for me. Well this is :

Hope to see you guys join! And here are those thoughts.

Are you happier or more satisfied with yourself than you were yesterday?

What drives you what motivates you to do better than yesterday ?

What is holding you back from reaching your goals?

And that’s how I feel about this. Thanks for the read and support and good luck stay strong and awesome!

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What a cool story, this is great. I understand you with being fit and quiting. Im always geting into fitnes then dropping it. I will do one of this background stories myself when I hit 30 days!
Start that challenge, now you have super srong will power!!! Keep going man, wish you to succed!!

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It was good to read more of your story brother, thanks for sharing here. Great work in completing the 30 day challenge! :muscle:

I like those questions at the end!

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Thanks you guys so much for the support. A special shout out to you guys @Forerunner and @anon15901281! Thanks for your wishes and participation.

Today I realised I have forgotten the most important question that I should have added.
Probably a very good thing so I can focus and express my view more into.

The 17 yo guy was so open about his progress that he mentioned the following as well:

He said his dream is to become a bodybuilder and he noticed as guys have spoken to him that he is excited about the exercise and they wanna know his secret.

He said simple his dream is to be a bodybuilder and each exercise, rep and set wise brings him a step closer to his goal and dream.

He said he is so obsessive about the goal that his room is filled with photos of bodybuilders. It is the first and last thing he sees each day and it makes him happy and keeps him motivated to achieve his dream.

Well I thought it was kinda weird as I checked guys out who were gyming for motivation and clearly it works. As long as you put the effort with it and not let that dream stay a dream.

The question he mentioned is also have you made a goal and have you met that goal for today or made progress on that long term goal and also what is the reason for the goal?

If it is to look good or feel good for example with the exercises than it is good and you should stay focused on that so it can become yoh driving force.

As long as you don’t quit. Once you are in it to do it just do it. 1, 2, 3, and go. Not skipping just true focus and do it one step at a time! But don’t stop don’t start to doubt or wonder just go for it!

Well I am resting up the weekend to build my excitement for the challenge next week also to see how adaptive I am at restarting. This is my motivation to see with a busier schedule etc. Will I be able to make it again. That is the true test.

I will add some spice with measurements as well as I didn’t do it this time, and it would make the second one a true progress test!

Thanks for the read and support and good luck stay strong and awesome!

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You’ve got this man! Rest this week, and the next one…
Eat the world!!! It is yours c:

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Hey there! It’s a long time since I have posted here.

Here is an update on my recent journey so far:

Today I just barely reached day 16 and I will explain a bit more a bit later.

So two weeks in after my relapse .

Well it was thougher than I thought I had awkward and stupid moments in these 2 weeks.

Being scared of going in the shower as I might relapse to the weird position of where to put my dick with an awkward urge in between.

But this topped it all for me reaching the all time weird:

So yeah, last night I had the weirdest experience on my journey. It was a very chilled week execpt for day 14 where I had a small urge the morning and one in the bath. So but beat them easily.

But for some apparent reason in the early hours of this morning I woke up don’t know the exact time I avoid looking at the clock when I wake up in the middle of the night. But I woke up where I caught myself in a bizzare and dangerously close relapse state.

I woke up on my stomach and litterly close to climax. I had humped my bed in my sleep I felt the pressure of the thrust on my dick and I knew maybe 1 or 2 more of these and then I would relapse. So whilst in this position I just woke and slowly turned on my back avoiding another rub to avoid climax and I manage to avoid climax and avoid any further stimulation as I fell asleep a min or so after I laid on my back.

Maybe from all the tention I woke and it disturbed me and as soon as I avoided all the "sexual " stimulus I was relaxed and could sleep again. I didn’t have any sexual dreams or thoughts so it bothered me a little bit this morning as I woke. Had a little bit of precum that came out, but no ejaculation.

It was the stranges thing that happend to me. I don’t really practice edging at all.

Why this happend tottally and honestly baffled me. Could be that being not sexually active that my body just wants a bit of tention release… I don’t have a slight idea exactly why, but I know I have to be wake up as it might happen again in the comming days.

Hope if you read this that you can be more vigilant if this happens to you!

Good luck and stay strong and awesome!

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