Day 16 completed
Excercise has become my routine these days.
But as i avoided porn sites, now my brain is triggering me to be starred at normal videos or visuals (while in outside also)
What am i doing with these distractions?
These distractions reduces my confidence level.
I need to focus on my goals.
I need to get happy from the small accomplishments what i do day to day.
If i am keep on starring at these beautiful s**ts i will lose my goals.
According to me, distraction not only by mobile, its in my mind and thinking.
I need to rewire it.
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Having a big urge here now in day 17.
My veins are in pain now.
Distracted from normal search to a wrong link that had some texts only, Aroused by reading itself.
What a mind i have…
Do i am worthy for only 17 days?
No
I can… I can…
Thanks to this diary…
Using the urge managment now…
I hate sundays… 
The day of distraction
Defeated the urge this time 
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Day 18
Heavy feeling below, since in the last streaks i was giving up like a day in a week.
But in this streak i am in the mind of not giving up.
Lets do this…
Day 19 completed.
Nowadays i controlled the wrong usage of phone.
But i cannot control the distractions when i am in outside.
The good and bad thoughts are fighting each other and resulting my self esteem is getting low. I feel shame on me.
These leads to urges.
Hope i will defeat this thing also.
There are many real things around me to feel happy about and to get achieved.
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Day 20 completed.
General thought today:
We may not have super day always, many days may have most repeated boring things.
Just pass these days with what a tiny improvement you can do. Sometimes its okay that no improvement, but dont commit to bad things. Thats enough.
One day, life will give you surprises combinely for these days.
Day 21 going
No urges
But feeling like low motivated
Day 22 completed on dec 16 22
Now the unwanted thoughts somehow reduced.
But be aware that in any situations that demon will come to defeat you.
Day 23 is going to complete.
Morning started with high productivity.
Woke up earlier and completed my few works earlier.
But from the afternoon, somewhat did the wrong things such as : ate more junk foods as lunch and dinner. Craving for junk food increased.
In the evening, while using youtube, accidentally seen an arousing content for just less than one minute and immediately closed youtube and came to RC.
Played the urge meditation and sat down with legs crossed and closed the eyes and felt the urge.
I felt like my legs especially feet, hands especially wrists, lower stomach were in pain and in small shivering and also felt like they were telling me that “Do not do this PMO! We don’t want to lose our strentgh”
As time passes, all came to normal and i continued the regular works.
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Day 24 is going to complete.
Today the urge is coming even for the normal picture or video and when in outside also.
That much addiction i have? 
The saturday night and sunday effect is in the way i think.
Why that fluid is wanting to come out eagerly.
Now this time i wont allow it easily.
Is this the way i need to entertain my self?
Noooo…
I won’t allow the bad thing to defeat me anymore…
These 23 days i am seeing a little progress in me.
This needs to continue…
It will…
Day 25 is going to completed.
A busy day…
19th december 22
Today i am on day 26th going…
Work wise i have made a big failure which is not finishing the work as planned.
But at this situation in past, i would be exhausted, but this time i realised this is not only my mistake. No need to get depression.
For me depression leads to PMO and relapse.
But this time i am going to enjoy the failures and i am going to fight for myself.
I am seeing myself worthyness increased a lot to my purspective.
22nd december
28 days completed
Had a wet dream in early morning
Upto early morning slept staight
Woke up earlier and thought to sleep for some more time and slept upside down.
Thats the two mistakes i have done, and had a wet dream due to that.
Feeling less motivated and less energy.
Hope i will get back the energy soon.
December 25th
Day 31 completed
A month is completed
But not feeling like any achievment.
My aim is not only streaks count, but more than that.
One day i will write success story.
December 29th
Day 35 completed
Completely avoided unwanted browsing.
But now the next problem is, in my mind i am getting images of arousal things which i have done in the past and with that note i am getting urges.
But i will overcome this also.
We are the one!
I also improving myself day by day
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One day, we will reach heights bro.
Our aim is to live without guilty feelings.
Jan 20 2023
Day 2 completed
Day 3 morning
Morning woke up with confused state of mind.
Having little bit urge.
My mind is telling that to browse for the beautiful pictures to relax.
But already i am relaxing.
I no need that pictures to cool me.
There are many ways to enjoy positively.
I have many works to do today.
Its ok to complete half of my plans.
Thats enough.
But i should not struck in a trap.
I need to enjoy doing my plans.
Dear me… I love you the way you want to succeed in your life. Dont get tensed if the things not going well.
There is no need all the things need to be get done perfectly.
You have correct plans.
Do not urge your plans.
Do one by one.
Thats enough.
Be cool.
This week i have released my seeds too much.
Approximately, 5 times.
As i am on day 3, i have feeling that i have no strength. I am not excercising and i am taking sugar too much. Let the time to get me back in form.
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Jan 23 monday morning
Day 5 completed and day 6 started.
Feeling my body is recovering from the mistakes i have done in the last week.
I am always having the fight in my mind among the time spending between the following things since i am working.
- Personal works
- Office works
- Excercise
- Study to get more knowledge in my career.
I am more putting time to 1 and 2.
Not for 3 and 4.
The 4 things are important equally in my life.
But i cannot allocate time to those 4.
Daily i am having the guilty feeling about this.
Resulting i am getting depression and that leads to PMO.
I need to accept the things as it is.
I know it but i cannot in some times.
But hope is the best thing i have. Hope these all will happen correctly.