Day 122
Went to gym, then scrolled a lot through social media. Relapsed.
Day 123-124
Missed gym, went to office and tried to stay productive. In the office I was way more reserved than usual and people notice that, usually happens after relapse where I want to isolate myself and not talk to anyone. Still I tried to mingle a bit. Another thing is that my sleep cycle gets affected a lot as it gets difficult to sleep. I have been trying to limit my time on social media. Also I found some videos on youtube about RO DBT (Radical openness psychotherapy), it seems interesting and can help me in social skills. There is a handout pdf of it also available over internet with exercises that seem genuinely good. Will go over it as I need to improve my social skills. I have been thinking to join a theatre group as that can help me towards the same goal and it might actually be fun, this is something that I also derived after talking to a psychologist last year but really didn’t tried enough to find a theatre group. I’m thinking to start it now, since my job is now a bit more relaxed than my previous company, which was shit and so stressful that they even used to push work over to weekends.
Day 125-126
Started back with gym, went yo office. Got a little upset when my efforts & work wasn’t being recognized.
Day 127
Relapsed because of habit loop. Installed multiple blockers on phone. Will head to gym today & clean my room & finish the book.
Day 128
Relapsed, no p only m.
I am planning to incorporate 30min meditation into the daily routine for one month.
Will also finish reading book on both finance & related to my personal hobby.
Need to go through the the RO DBT lectures as well. It always seems like so much to do at any point in time. So, let’s focus on two things for now, 30min meditation. & Finishing hobby book as I’m pretty close to finishing that. While in the mean time gym & sleeping on time is already part of routine which I need to maintain.