@Sacred Yeah I’ve been thinking about it! But I still think I might wait until I’m really getting going. I want to be able to be an encouragement to others in the group, but I also don’t want myself to only have motivation due to wanting to do well for others. I want to be self-motivated completely. But I’m definitely considering it
@Dane1989 Yikes brother, sounds like a tough spot. Yeah I know the feeling, especially when my sleep schedule is off.
Keep with it bro, remember that PMO is not necessary for our lives, it never has been, we only see it as a necessary crutch because we have lived with withdrawal pangs for so long. It’s not pleasure we get from it, but the fleeting relief of a few brief moments without wanting it again.
It’s constant torture. We want it when we don’t have it, and when we have it, we regret ever getting it. Remember that all it takes is moving on without it. You lose nothing by quitting, and you only have amazing benefits to gain by being clean.
I know you know all this, but I find it helps for me to remind myself constantly of this when I have urges. Stay strong brother, it will pass
Day 7 - Jan 13, 2021
Made it one week and feeling good
Yesterday went well enough, but I stayed up later than I wanted and played a game with my friend. I know I shouldn’t do that. I should be in bed before or exactly at 10:30. I know my friends will be playing late, but I’ll make a deal and say I can only play 8-9:30. No later, I don’t care what happens, 9:30 I am getting off the game and getting to bed.
However, if I get any urges whatsoever, it’s no games tonight. I’m not risking that. Period.
Anyway, I read a really great quote in the EasyPeasy Method today, thought I’d share it since I feel like I believed this lie in the past, but the book pointed it out well:
“It’s cliché to say, “If you haven’t got your health, you’ve got nothing” but it’s absolutely true. When you feel physically and mentally strong you can enjoy the highs and handle the lows. Many confuse responsibility with stress, responsibility only becomes stressful when we don’t feel strong enough to handle it. What destroys most isn’t stress, jobs or old age, but the illusory lying crutches they turn to.”
It’s not the responsibilities of life that cause us stress and make us feel the need to relapse, it’s the stress of feeling inadequate to meet those responsibilities. And what makes us feel inadequate? PMO! So we fuel our own stress and therefore our own relapses! There is no need for PMO whatsoever, we could live completely healthy lives and significantly less stressful ones if we would leave the addiction behind.
Anyhow, that’s my thoughts for today. Keep at it everyone