A little over two weeks now so congratulations to me .
It’s always good to take a look back on this journey and reminde ourselves that you shouldn’t give up so easily since things definitely get better each time. And that you should be proud of yourselves for even trying to break out of a habit that was built over the years. It’s not easy that’s for sure but it’s possible to change all that.
Just don’t ever give in to temptation and keep on going even if it means starting from the bottom as long as you come back, that’s all that matters.
I’m definitely one to testify for that, since everytime I relapsed I came back and started my counter again and continued.
I had days were I’d relapsed but tried to make excuses for myself not to restart the counter.
You know waking up with this anxious feeling has its benefits, I mean I don’t like it but it means that I push myself to get out of bed and start my day unlike before I’d relapse just so that I wouldn’t feel anything.
That numb sensation that followed, a feeling of nothingness after every relapse made me so lifeless, I just didn’t have anything to look forward to, I felt so isolated and I’m afraid if I ever go back to that way of life I’ll struggle to progress at all just so that I wouldn’t feel any stress and anxiousness.
But being stressed and being anxious all these emotions anger, happiness, sadness, everything is just part of being human. You experience heartbreak, turmoil and whatever in betweens and it sucks but that’s what it means to be human.
Anyway I’m rambling on now but whoever you are don’t lose hope keep going and we’re all rooting for you.