Simon's journey to quit porn forever

May 4: I woke up at 8:10 AM and this has to be the most unproductive day i have had since i started the journal.

I had tons of urges as well. I peeked at some things. I was very close to break my streak today. Somehow i survived and didnt relapse. Hopefully this is a wakeup call for me.

May 5: I woke up around 8 AM and i finally sorted myself out, thinking about what i actually want to achieve and what is important in life. I then proceeded on to a meditation and workout, eating healthy and well and I also went outside for a walk.

No urges today, as expected. Gotta keep myself busy and i will be fine.

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May 6: i woke up at 7 AM and did some stuff for university right away and then took a break to come back later and work for university some more. I couldnt find time to meditate in the morning, but i am satisfied with what i accomplished today.

I, again, had no urges. I will try to keep this up.

May 7: I woke up at 7:30 AM meditated, listened to a lecture and finally started reading the EasyPeasy book. I will give some more updates on the content in this book, but i would definetely encourage all of the people who read my journal (thank you for reading this by the way) to start reading this book as well. I already wrote down some important things from the book that i will read again when i have urges.Talking about urges: I had some today, but i could handle them with patience until they were gone. I also managed to workout in the afternoon.

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May 8: I woke up a little bit later today, at 9 AM. But i was able to meditate shortly after and i did some things in the household today. Still wolud have like to use some time for studying pr reading the EasyPeasy book, but oh well.

No urges today. Feels good to not have them on your days.

May 9: Unfortunately i fell asleep right after i woke up at 8AM. So i got up late today and my morning wasnt very productive. But starting froom noon I actually did alot of things today, so i am quite satisfied with how the day went.

I recall having urges in the afternoon, but i was able to resist them with walking around, going to the toilet and distracting myself.

Looking back at this week, I had alot of failures and successes. A very mixed week overall, only working out two times and having lazy days, but also being very productive on other days. It is all part of the progress though. I will try again and again until i finally succeed.

May 10: I woke up at 8 AM and had a super productive day with meditation, workout learning for examen as well as all the necessary things that i want to do on a normal day.

Urges? No, just pure satisfaction from what i have accomplished today.

May 11: I woke up at 7:15 AM and meditated. In the morning i was able to work a little bit for university and then had a lecture in the afternoon. I was fairly productive today.

I had alot of thoughts about why i have urges and why does porn seem to interest me. I concluded that whatever the reason may be, i dont want to deal with porn anyway and that life is so much more than that. I dont need porn in my life,
it gives you nothing except a miserable time on earth.

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May 12: i am approaching my next examen period, so most of the next days will be about learning as much as possible. Including this day, where i woke up at 8AM and did some necessary stuff in the morning and then learned alot for my next examen. I didnt find time for meditation or a workout, but i am still happy with how the day went.

No urges whatsoever today. Not even thoughts about sex.

May 13: I woke up at 8 AM. I meditated, worked out and did some stuff for university. I went on a bike trip as well, but i was very exhausted after that. So i was less productive for the rest of the day.

I had no urges, but some sexual thoughts.

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May 14: I woke up at 8:30 AM. I didnt meditate and i was less productive today. I didnt like myself in one action that i made today, even though it probably wasnt that big of a deal. I hope, i can forgive myseelf.

No urges occured today though.

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May 15: I was very exhausted again for some reason today, thus being pretty unproductive and tired. I woke up late and stayed up late. I will try to bounce back tomorrow.