[ 20 M ] Risinglion123 in the pursuit for bright future

Hi uday , Welcome to the community. From the four , I selected Gateforum academy because among the four. It have the highest rating with maximum no. of reviews. Also its the nearest to my house.

I don’t have an exact reason associated with it. It’s more like a gut feeling than from a rational one. About 2 -3 days ago , I read about the advantage of an IAS officer with an M.TECH degree in which the whole writing is about an interview with an IAS officer with M.tech.

I will share it with you if I find it again. I’ve just written the notes associated with it. You are right. Only basic degree is necessary for UPSC. But it is still possible to write for UPSC after M.tech.

I am a General category which means I can only write UPSC till 31 and I can have only 6 attempts. After M.tech , I will be 24 or maybe 25. So my gut feeling says me M.tech before UPSC. And I am really motivated associated with it. Maybe I can find a definite reason later .

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:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:white_check_mark:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:white_check_mark:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:white_check_mark:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:x:Dont sleep during daytime

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  1. Study daily portions
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Woke up at 6 AM. While waiting for the bus, saw some crows eating winged termites ( We call it eeyal in Malyalam ) since its rainy these days. I was noticing those crows with a lot of enthusiasm with unknown reason.

The actions done by those crows fascinated me. It might sound awkward , but the way the eyes of the crows looks like eyes of MS DHONI going to leap a helicopter shot. They are super vigilant in what they do. I also saw a crow helping another crow get those termites. Small stuffs like this start to notice me like anything.

Also I have not been using Google and YouTube for a month. I only used Google in my college library to get some information about nearby coaching centres. Maybe this would be the reason to focus on small things like this.

Reached home , worked out and meditated . Slept at 8 30 unfortunately. I am feeling super tired after workout after coming back to college.

So I am thinking of giving myself some rest days during weekdays instead of weekends

Always thank God for everything

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Ohk then it’s nice what you feel.

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Bro they ask it in interview. That why didn’t you started preparing upsc just then. They will not accept gut feeling…
I have seen many interview that’s why…

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Ikr , Maybe I will be getting a reasonable answer before that or I will just by heart all the key points in that IAS interview I saw earlier :joy::joy:

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Daily habits

:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:x:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:x:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:x:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:x:Dont sleep during daytime

To do list update

:x:Study daily portions
:x:Study lagging portions

To do list for today

  1. Study lagging portions

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Woke up at 6 AM. It was heavily raining outside. Rushed to catch all the bus and got it in nick of time. But I like this , I want some excitement like this. By parents hate this. I don’t want to live like the same everyday.

I believe its important to be consistent in some stuff every day, maybe some good habits like reading books , meditate etc but I also need some things that makes my day unique.

With some self reflection, it’s not that I hate Studies, it’s the unhealthy competition and living the life in the same way is what I hate.
Anyway studied for like 7 hours , thought of giving myself a break from discipline today , watched Puzhu ( Which means Worm , a Malyalam movie) and Dr. Strange 2 and dozed off to sleep :sleeping:

Always thank God for everything

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Daily habits

:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:x:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:x:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:x:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:x:Dont sleep during daytime
:x:Daily affirmations
:x:Wake up before 8 AM

To do list update

:x:Study lagging portions

To do list for today

  1. Study lagging portions

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Woke at 9 am because I slept late yesterday watching Dr. Strange yesterday. Honestly I have exactly nothing to say regarding yesterday because yesterday was next to zero significance. My productivity was next to zero. Am I distracted ? No. My distraction is next to nil these days. You won’t believe me but I was daydreaming for an entire day.

As I mentioned, I was not using Google and YouTube for almost a month , 32 days to be exact. How ? I have scheduled a digital detox for 23 hours a day with some white listing of some apps. This detox breaks at 3am and starts at 4 am everyday because of the least probability that I am awake during that time.

Anyway added two habits to my daily routine. Daily affirmations and wake before 8 am. Finished book LWT by Robin Sharma. Going to read " The Monk who sold his ferrari " by Robin Sharma from tomorrow onwards .

I think I am experiencing strong flatline associated with no fap and rewiring of my brain due to absence of social media these days. But I cant tell this as an excuse for my unproductive day.

What I learnt from this ? Well Nothing. Laziness is a complicated phenomenon. Sometimes only willpower helps. But I believe making a new decision to wake up early can be a great choice since we have a good start in the beginning

Always thank God for everything

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Daily habits

:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:white_check_mark:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:x:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:x:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:x:Dont sleep during daytime
:white_check_mark:Daily affirmations
:white_check_mark:Wake up before 8 AM
:white_check_mark:Bed is only for sleeping
:white_check_mark:Seeing grey between black and white

To do list update

:x:Study lagging portions

To do list for today

  1. Study lagging portions
  2. Study daily portions
  3. Study for Analog signals viva

Deadline

None

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Current streak : 11 days
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Woke up at 7.30. I took the decision of being downstairs during the remaining part of the day so that I am being watched by parents which I believe to be a remedy for laziness.

But my parents gone outside and I was alone in my home. No entertainment , No dopamine and I don’t felt like studying at all. Blocking Google and YouTube is one of the difficult decisions I made in my life. But I believe, once I am adapted to it , it’s worth it.

So out of boredom, I peeked for some pics. Fortunately not to porn. How ?

I have my laptop with me. Even my laptop has its Google and YouTube blocked. Why I am focusing on Google and YouTube is because this would be one of my ultimate attempts when it comes to No fap.

What I did is that , I downloaded Brave browser from uptodown.com , Then I downloaded You Tube. I peeked for like 4 to 5 hours straight but later got senses and escaped from that eternal loop.

I later blocked Brave browser and uptodown in order to prevent future mistakes. Then during the remaining part of the day, I was fighting with my own mindset not to PMO. Meditation and Reading helped but not fully.

The good thing is that I added 2 habits to my habits list. Learnt from mistakes. Eliminated future threats and currently practising myself to see grey between black and white which is been added as habit list.

What I meant from this habit is to escape from the unfavourable loop associated with all abstinence habits so that if negative consequence happened, it would be less threatening

Always thank God for everything

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Then what is the use of blocking youtube if you have to be go back to it again and you just got into a new PMO loop you didn’t escape it.

But it’s fine that you realised that next time be careful. :slightly_smiling_face:

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Bro , I blocked the website www.youtube.com so there’s no way I can access that website. But what I did is I downloaded YouTube app instead of entering the website using Brave extensions

Now I blocked both the extension and website to prevent future mistakes

Yeah sure brother , I have to make sure I won’t repeat again

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Daily habits

:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:white_check_mark:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:white_check_mark:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:white_check_mark:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:white_check_mark:Dont sleep during daytime
:white_check_mark:Daily affirmations
:white_check_mark:Wake up before 8 AM
:white_check_mark:Bed is only for sleeping
:white_check_mark:Seeing grey between black and white

To do list update

:x: Study lagging portions
:x:Study daily portions
:x:Study for Analog signals viva

To do list for today

  1. Study lagging portions
  2. Study daily portions

Deadline

None

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Current streak : 12 days
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Woke up at 6 AM. Fortunately nothing unfavourable happened. Gone to college , reached home , worked out, meditated. Since I had an audition for classical music , I have to upload the song online and sent it to the people who is in charge of the event associated with it.

Studied for 1 hour then , but unfortunately dozed off to sleep in the middle of my Studies because I was super tired. Then I woke up at 2 AM and saw a firefly in my stomach. I was startled and jumped from the sofa. Then I rushed to my bedroom and continued my sleep

One thing I noticed is that when I work out , meditate and practise classical music the moment after I reach to home after college , I really become tired in such a way that I just want to sleep. No more energy to study.

So I should make some plans in such a way that I can reduce some activities during the latter part of the day so that I can have enough energy to study properly. I am looking for a plan , but currently found none. Hope I can come out with a better decision and more importantly executing it.

Always thank God for everything

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How you did that? Do any apps or any websites?

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I have an extension called Cold Turked Blocker added to my pc whose sole purpose is to block the website you wish to block. But this is a hardcore extension bro. I would only recommend you if you are serious regarding your decision. This is more like the Laptop version of Digital detox app.

Why I am saying this is because once you start your detox mode , there’s no way you can get out of it. So its effective and precautionary at the same time.

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Is it a chrome extension?

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It’s a great book bro. Amazing. And relates to us Indians even more

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Yepp

Yeah bro , Its really superb. Never getting bored reading it. Filled with a lot of insights.

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Daily habits

:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:white_check_mark:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:white_check_mark:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:white_check_mark:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:white_check_mark:Dont sleep during daytime
:white_check_mark:Daily affirmations
:white_check_mark:Wake up before 8 AM
:white_check_mark:Bed is only for sleeping
:white_check_mark:Seeing grey between black and white

To do list update

:x: Study lagging portions
:x:Study daily portions

To do list for today

  1. Study lagging portions
  2. Study daily portions

Deadline

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MILESTONE : 7
Current streak : 13 days
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Woke up at 6. Same stuff , rushing to catch the bus , reading inside bus , attending class , working out , meditating and practicing classical music after reaching home. But now I started to experience increased energy. Maybe due to no fap. Yesterday I mentioned that I need to think about some energy conservation during the latter part of the day. But I was energetic yesterday even after doing all those stuff. Studied for 2.5 hours more after reaching home.

Another benefit I found from No fap is that I am optimistic even when things screw me up. Idk , I am confident due to unknown reasons. But I should make sure that my confidence should reflect on my actions rather than on my behaviour so that it won’t turn into arrogance. Arrogance is one of the side effects I experienced earlier because of no fap. I should be mindful regarding that.

And after that I got a message from WhatsApp that I am selected for all the auditions that took place associated with the main event that is going to take place tomorrow.

I got a call from one of the coordinators that I am the main singer of all the events.

What I have to do is that I have to stand in the centre of the college , where all the students will be standing on each floor and cheering me upwards. I am excited and tensed at the same time. Hope everything goes well .

Always thank God for everything

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My father has this books since I don’t know how long but I never read it. Apparently my mom didn’t like that my father read it, I don’t know why, never really asked though.

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Same applies to my mom too. She is not a big fan of self help books. But she’s not against it. She calls all these stuff a waste of time.

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Daily habits

:white_check_mark:Read 30 minutes
:white_check_mark:Mindfulness practice 15 minutes
:white_check_mark:Workout
:white_check_mark:Cold shower
:white_check_mark:Follow hair routine
:white_check_mark:No autosexual behaviour
:white_check_mark:Practice classical music
:white_check_mark:Restricted junk food
:white_check_mark:Dont sleep during daytime
:white_check_mark:Daily affirmations
:white_check_mark:Wake up before 8 AM
:white_check_mark:Bed is only for sleeping
:white_check_mark:Seeing grey between black and white

To do list update

:x: Study lagging portions
:x:Study daily portions

To do list for today

  1. Study lagging portions
  2. Study daily portions

Deadline

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MILESTONE : 7
Current streak : 14 days
Badge : Freeman

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Woke up at 6. I was excited for the event that is going to take place today. Same stuff rushing to catch the bus , reading inside bus and eventually reached college. Attended class till 12.30 PM. After lunch people called me for the event that is going to take place at 3.30 PM.

We had a practice session for 2 hours inside hall room. At 3.30 the show began. I was in the middle of the college in the open air where the audience are sitting in their respective floors of the college. The show went well. Sung Velmuruka ( An evergreen Malyalam song ) and Badtameez dil.

After my part is over , even knowing I am a terrible dancer, I danced my heart out when the remaining songs were played.

I was really tired but managed to do daily chores and was able to study for 2.5 hours more after that. But slept again in the middle of studies.

Still a lot of academic stuff pending. Miles to go before I sleep

Always thank God for everything

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