March 25, 1 am .
I’m starting my new diary. I’m failing constantly from last 5 days with only highest streak of 2 days. Now again on track somehow, but I lose it again and again and then get back then lose . Stuck in this circle. I have ambitions in life to become the best ,for that to achieve I have to work for it. So my new journey starts again. I’m determined towards my goals. Let’s go day 1.
March 25, 1 am .
March 26, 23:39
Almost 3 days completed. Feeling better again and much more energetic. Today was productive after long time. I had great day after so many time. I’m so happy today although I couldn’t workout today but I was really busy today in a positive way. I’m just feeling so well , want to continue this life and make it even better.
March 31, 8:34 am.
7 days 1st week completed. Feeling great after getting back on the track . This holi was memorable for me ( can’t ignore nofap contribution). Now my main focus is on study ,I have my exams in may and practical exams in April. I have gained confidence just need to work more efficiently and disciplined. Workout is back too ,I have to be consistent and work even more from now. I can do it , I will try my best in everything , rest is on God’s hands. Never Stop Learning because Life Never stop teaching.
Same problem I am unable to reach 1 week mark now which I could easily do earlier.
Once we reach above one week , it’s a lot easier. Beginning is hardest.
April 1, 12:12 pm.
I had nightfall yesterday night but it didn’t feel anything it was totally natural and I’m as healthy as yesterday. Way to go
Again lost after 4 days , tough times
Don’t quit. I know after relapse we are stuck in the loop, but you have to go at least above 7 days. And I recommend you to workout daily and running. And eat healthy focus on your body and personality development. I’m currently working on my body from last month and I’m in great shape for first time in life. Never give up
Thanks for your tips bro I’ll try to reach 7 days this time
April 5, 14:40 . On day 13th.
Today yes she refused to give me her number
Feeling bad actually I didn’t expect this from her , she is my best female friend but I have learnt the lesson. Don’t expect too much.
Okay. I’m not going to think about her now . Again time to keep pushing myself forward , I’ll focus better now ,yeah there is some depression but I’ll fight back xxx. Workout study
My exam are also coming btw I’m alone again it’s ok but I believe in myself I’m a fighter . Time to move on and work towards better me.
And by the way , we(my friends)planned a trip today but the new Corona guidelines ruined our trip . Shit . Now it can be only after exams. Fuck this corona .
For now my road is clear , study and workout .
But nofap keep me motivated thanks nofap .
Way to go
9th April, 00:13.
Almost completed 16 days. I’m getting back to where should have I always be. I’m not disappointed with myself , so actually confidence is high . And today actually I really really really had strong urges and was about to watch porn,my mind was saying like I will only watch and not fap and my mind is obsessed with my former favourite pornstars. Sometimes my mind try so much that it kinda trick me , at first it says let’s see her Insta what’s she doing like wtf I’m so concerned about their life . I have to keep the motivation high ,what should I have to do with those pornstar life who sold themselves for money. I should be concerned about my life and try to improve this . Boredom can be tough but you are supposed to utilise that time to build your personality , study , workout ,plans and whatever that improve your life or help others.so now from tomorrow I will follow strict planning. I am kind of guy who do everything according to plan so I will be following strict rules about study times and workout. And as exams are near this is compulsory. And actually I have mobile addiction so need to cut and keep minimum instagram , YouTube etc. The base is already solid now (16 days strong) now time to upgrade the workout and study.
And lately I have been thinking about girls a lot these days. Quite natural maybe but now my main focus is study and workout. If I improve daily there will be automatically increase in confidence eventually will make it easier for me to get a girl. Nothing is free we have to work constantly.
So yeah guys let’s go to the next level.
Eat healthy, study, workout, stay fit and healthy.
Way to go
Life is tough ,but so am I
I thought I was the only one that its mind kinda makes schemes to get in something, please be watchful of all those things. Never give up and keep going
April 10, 10:13 am.
On day 18th ,I had nightfall this morning . I slept late and this is the result but is this a relapse? I don’t consider this as a relapse but i will sleep early and wake up early from now on. Feeling great , nightfall don’t make me feel guilty it just happens when I’m not in my control.
April 10, 20:32
This was one of the worst day of my streak. I wasted whole day on YouTube and instagram. And as I was free today all day ,did absolutely nothing so actually urges were on peak I was on a brink of opening porn and breaking the streak.
Actually from last 2-3 days it seems like I’m going through flatline , I don’t have any motivation to workout, study and all I want is do nothing. This is absolutely ridiculous. I’m not growing . Although I am on streak of day 17+ I feel low in energy whole day from last couple of days. Idk why the fire seems to be dying out. I even didn’t go to college today . I’m turning into a lazy bum I have two assignments not completed yet and my exams are comi6near day by day but I’m becoming useless wtf so disappointed with myself. This is the real thing that make our confidence go down.
And I didn’t even take a bath today wtf worst day totally wasted. I’m upset need motivation . I always say I will start from tomorrow but that tomorrow never come. The only positive is that I managed to not relapse in this time. And there is a girl that I’m starting liking in my neighborhood so tomorrow is very critical day. It’s Sunday so I will utilise it to the limit. I will complete one assignment. Will take 5-6 classes. I will workout and then hang out in evening enough is enough man. The time has come now, I don’t want to waste this amazing time.
If I fail tomorrow I will suicide.lol (jk) the days are long and hot , perfect for staying inside and study till evening. I’m fully prepared mentally. I will come here tomorrow 11 pm night to give the reports of the day.
Hope you’re doing good bud, don’t fall, please remember that in this moments when motivation seems fading away and the fire is not as strong as before are the most crucial parts as this tests out our will, also try to stay focused in the purpose of all your task, I imagine that you are doing all of that (studying, exercising, etc) to give the best of you. Don’t let that this precious progress gets disturbed by a futile moment
April 14, 9:05am
Back to zero. I relapsed yesterday and break 20 days streak. The temptations were extreme I was totally unstable. I masturbated ok now focus on future.
I’m doing 30 days semen retention. I have the motivation for it and will do it. My last streaks 20 days,24 days. So not bad as compared to past .
Now just need to improve and get out of this loop. I’m still in relaxed state or hangover. It will take 2-3 days to fully recover . Honestly I didn’t feel the same guilt and regret as I used to feel when fapped twice in a week. Feeling calm now perfect time to focus on study in this hangover time. Peace
And btw after that day I was productive next day. Need to be regular tho
As previously, I have problems of nightfall so I need to stick to my routine strictly. Sleep early and wake up early. Semen retention let’s do it.