"rewireyourbrain's" Dairy...[21 M]

Hai friends…
My highest streak was 72 days…
In this days…
I didn’t use smart phone and Internet for 2 months…
I was doing workout and physical exercises for 2 and half hours regularly for 1 month.
Then I went to coaching institute for competitive exams…for 1 month to hyderabad…
Then I joined in hostel to stay…in which one boy was doing masturbation regularly under his blanket…
I ignored him soo many times…
And I thanked “The Almighty” Because I was stoped totally watching p* videos…
I was very active those times…
My self motivation was at high level…
My Alertness was at high level…
My memoy power was at high level…
I used to wake up at early morning those days…
I was very happy those days…
Then I thought i am totally recovered…
But i was wrong…
I started using smart phone after 60 days…
I was ok upto 70/71 days streak…
I deleted this app unfortunately…
Then i had installed it again…
After restarting it. I was very upset to see “0” At counter at that time I didn’t know how to reset lost streak ( My 72 days) again…
I was demotivated…
I did relapse…


Now i am trying to stop using this smart phone and to use a small phone…
But I am studying engineering…
My clg is not good…No good faculty is there…
More times it is very hard to study without watching online video’s because we have some problematic subjects also…
I decided to study online by watching some videos…
But when I start studying online…
I just learn for 2 or 3 days only…
Then i relapse because of some adds and triggers…
To start studying again it takes more than 6 or 7 days again to me…
So…
I would like to ask u that…
Is it Good for me to study online ???
How can i manage my studies with out watching online videos??
I really don’t want to study online…
Because of helplessness/compulsion…i am using smart phone…
I don’t have any Facebook,Instagram,twitter,etc accounts…

Please reply…
Waiting for your reply…

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It’s really improve that you are a warrior , I don’t know how , I’m at my 4th day and I’m afraid to get 72 days like you for example and fall down …
But you can make search for how you can " block porn from PC or Android "
You must believe that no one can rescue only yourself … so communicate with yourself gently .

God bless you guys .

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Day 0

Date : 18-04-2020
Time : 3:35 Am

2 nd Attempt failed…

I did m* 2 times today…

Commitment…

I will not use smartphone more than 1 and half hour for 30 days…

I search other ways to study… instead of online study…

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Positive thoughts»» Positive attitude»» Positive belief»» Positive action»» Positive result…

Negative thoughts»» Negative attitude»» Negative belief»» Negative action»» Negative result…

@Rewireyourbrain hello brother… dont run from these things… which are also usefull at the same time or in present… you cant imagine a life without it…
Leaving your smart phone is not a solution… NO OFFENSE but brother you are running from it… becoz you know you cannot leave smartphone for so many days or months.

But yes… i have read your previous diary enteries… i think may be if you achieve a big streak like 70 days…then you get that motivation again… in this case your decision to leave smartphone right.

The thing is…i want to say…you know yourself better… so for every plan… you must be aware the reasoning behind it… by considering your strengths and weaknesses.

God bless you… #engineer to engineer talk :blush:

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Thanks brother…@neo_150:blush:

Sorry brother @Adioz
I was some busy …:stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:

Day 6, 20 hours…

8 days, 5 hours…

“If you do and relapse you’ll be again at the level you were days AGO, when you were begging for the day you are NOW”

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Day 9

Day 10

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11 days, 19 hours…

“When the urge comes everything else will seem pointless except masturbation. It will be hard. This is the true way of testing your mental strength. Overcoming this will make you stronger and happier”

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Day 12

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Day 14

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14 days, 23 hours…

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Day 0 Again…

Date : 03-05-2020
Time : 3:00 Am

3 rd Attempt failed…

Triggers:

YouTube videos…

I tried a lot …
I did meditation and breathing exercise…
The urges were very strong…
I did m* 1 time…

I am feeling very tired and headache…

I failed to follow my previous commitment …
I think It’s the reason…

Now I decided to stop using smartphone for 15 days. except only for loging in rewire companion forum…

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21 hours…

Day 0 Again…

4 th Attempt failed…

Date : 04-05-2020
Time : 12:45 Am

5 th Attempt failed…

Date : 04-05-2020
Time : 02:30 Am

Reason:

I am Not honest …:pensive:

Day 0

After 3 days…

6 Attempt failed…

Date : 08-05-2020
Time : 01:00 Am

Feeling pain in joints,headache and brain fog