[NeverGiveup420] Wake up, Do your Best, Rest, Repeat- All praises are for Allah Almighty

Day 22 Completed

No one can reach higher streak without placing ‘quitting PMO’ as number 1 Priority

Past pornographic memories and images have started to surface my mind. They are sort of automatic triggers without any dependency of external factors. They only appear when I try to focus on studies. These triggers are different. They mentally force me to think about relapsing. Their pressure is extraordinary. My willpower is challenged.
I have to apply equally opposite pressure and say NO!, I WON’T RELAPSE. I WON’T CLOSE MY BOOK AND I WON’T OPEN MY COMPUTER. These triggers are not constant for hours like yesterday, but they are in waves.

The only factor keeping my will to fight alive is my new decision:

’My number 1 priority is quitting PMO. I don’t care if I can’t focus on studies. I don’t care if I feel constantly pressurized by sexual desires and triggers. I won’t relapse even if I face worst withdrawals, even if I die, even if I fail my exams, even if I become the worst failure in the world, I won’t relapse. Nothing is worse than relapse’

Today I fought 2nd time with this new level of withdrawal. And I feel after every successful encounter with urges, I am getting stronger and more well equipped to defeat urges. Soon this will become a habit and won’t even need any willpower.

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Day 23 Completed

Today was a good day :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

Today was a good day. No sexual urges, no triggering thoughts, no compulsions arose today. Last 2 days were really tough. Today, thanks to God, was a fine day. I studied well. I studied for 40 mins then took a 20 min break. I did 3 cycles of it, studied total 2 hours effectively. 40 mins is maximum human focusing span. After that, procrastination starts. This 40 min can be expanded. It takes time and effort.

There are bad days. And there are good days. They complement each other. It’s all part of this amazing journey of self discovery and improvement.
Stay bless my few but loyal readers😄.

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Day 24 Completed

Why do people with 400 and 500+ days streaks relapse?

Because, once we form a strong bad habit i.e. PMO, the patterns are formed in our brain. We can quit PMO, replace it with positive habits but the seed of PMO is always present in our mind. It will weaken, it will stop growing and apparently die, but the seed will still wait in our mind. It just needs one viewing of porn to grow back.

What can we do?

We should never assume we are invincible and cannot ever relapse. We should never let our guard down. If you relapse by watching movies or animes that leads to porn, then you have to beware of these triggers your whole life.

Its all needs one moment of weakness to throw your all hardwork away. Beware. Never assume you are out of danger. NEVER!

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Hello Brother - Good luck on your journey ! Glad to see you make it this far !
I had seen some materials before on the internet related to Nofap ( Hard mode - or semen retention in particular) .

https://www.reddit.com/r/Semenretention/comments/j86cek/key_quotes_from_books_and_deeper_research/

There are several - but honestly I think it is too much to read - These two try to comprehensively explain most of the books related to it - So I suggest starting out with this !

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@Thenofap_king thank you very much bro for the appreciation and self help material. I will definitely read it in free time. God bless you :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

Day 25 Completed

The Horrible Cycle. Gets us every time :pensive:

Relapse is very patient. It waits patiently not hurrying while it makes you move closer little by little to itself. It never suggests you directly to watch porn, it is wise. It destroys your defences little by little.

I won’t watch any movies or animes. I always relapse due to them.

I won’t watch any movies except those that come in cinema like block busters.

I will only watch movies once a week.

I am strong. I can watch movies and still control myself. Also, life is short. It should be enjoyed.

I can watch movies with some sex scenes, I can control myself. Also it will make me stronger.

I can watch some sex scenes. I won’t touch myself.

I can watch porn just a little. I won’t masturbate.

I can watch porn and masturbate but I won’t orgasm. I’ll only edge.

Shit!. I relapsed. I have failed. I might as well enjoy to the fullest and masturbate to porn again.

Shit!. It’s been many weeks I’m in chaser effect.

I need to quit porn. I also need to quit watching movies and animes. It always makes me relapse.

Well, this is my cycle, currently I only watch movies once a month. Those movies are those I have watched trailers of months ago. I have an urge now to only watch movies once a week regularly to enjoy but I know where this will lead.

If I make a strong habit of not watching movies, and live a wonderful life with hard work, real enjoyment in book reading, outing with friends, gym then I think I won’t relapse. Habits make or break us.

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We’ve been looking for HAPPINESS in the wrong place folks

I planned a full day of enjoyment.
I ate a medium sized pizza. I watched a movie I had been postponing. I also watched an animated film.
After I was done, I felt empty. I felt I needed more…

Its all temporary. Every deed of self pleasure is temporary. Gluttony, binge watching TV series or movies, and obviously PMO, every pleasure seeking action has the same result… EMPTYNESS… I only felt excited the first 1 minute of the movie and the first 3 bites of the pizza. Similarly in past, I only felt excited the first few seconds of watching porn every single time.

WHERE IS HAPPINESS?
MAYBE, I’ve been finding happiness in pleasure. Happiness is not in pleasure.

I’ve heard happiness is found in making others happy. I’ll try spreading smiles and happiness. I’ll experiment on my feelings by easing difficulties of the people. I’ll check if that satisfaction lasts. I’ll check if that satisfaction is FULLFILLING.
See you next time with results.

Day 26 Completed

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Day 27 Completed

:warning: How to stop a RELAPSE when you have decided to RELAPSE just before a RELAPSE :warning:VERY HELPFUL :warning:

Remember, every time before a relapse, there was a faint voice telling its a bad decision to relapse. It told you will regret it. But since you were in that mental state where you had already decided to relapse because it would be so fun and pleasureable, you went on with the momentum,ignored that voice inside you and relapsed anyway. Then that voice was all you heard. Loud and clear. Regret, Clear thoughts of loss, guilt and sadness.

Its possible to listen to that voice. It’s possible to stop that momentum even after you have decided to relapse. How?, here is how:

Step 1…Stop your movement. And take a deep breath. Get that voice a chance to speak and present its case. Tell to yourself that you will postpone relapse and listen to this voice. You will feel the momentum slowing.

Step 2…Listen to the voice. The momentum will almost stop.

Step 3…Say to yourself that I am in control and I am free to decide which action to choose. There will be stillness.

Step 4…Then chose to act right. Create your own positive momentum towards right action

We feel like we have no control before we relapse. Actually we give up control. But we can take back control simply by realizing that we are in control and free to decide what to do

This above thing can only be understood if you have a chance to practice. You must be thinking it’s easier said then done. You are right. It is very difficult at that time to stop yourself. But it’s possible. It takes courage and strength of will.

It was you who decided to relapse and it will be you who decide not to relapse.

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Up your game or you will relapse.

Find your reason why you started noPMO. This is a hard time for you. I relapsed at day 101 in the past. I know how hard it feels. But you need to evaluate your daily routine and eliminate triggers and dangerous activities. You need to stay strong through this time. Maybe you have started watching movies and you say that u can control. Trust me, it’s not you, it’s the dopamine craving talking and influencing your actions.

You are in control. You decide to relapse. And you decide to not relapse. The thoughts that you feed win.

Pleasure is temporary. It is not happiness. After Relapse, you will regret like u always do. Pain, depression, guilt, all these negative feeling will take over you and the cycle will start again.

Don’t focus on no of days now. Just focus on each present day. Make it your best productive day ever. Exercise, meditate, study, work etc go out with family or friends. Just focus on passing today securely and you will be fine.

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Day 28 Complete

Feed your malnourished White Wolf

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I’ve felt a change in my struggle against urges. I’ve started listening to that faint voice inside my head that tells me what is right and wrong. I feel my control over my choices increasing. This is due to me feeding my malnourished white wolf who is gaining some strength. Soon, it will be more powerful than my black wolf and it will be easier to always choose the right decision.
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For years I’ve been feeding my black wolf. It’s no wonder it’s so difficult to quit PMO. It’s time to realize the ultimate truth. IT’S POSSIBLE TO Quit!. I just have to empower my white wolf by feeding it. By acting on its advice every time there is a clash of wolves.
I am the master and my wolves are my slaves. Not the other way around!

I felt a desire to break my promise and eat with a screen in front for the sake of pleasure. That voice reminded me of my promise and I listened. Choosing not to eat in front a screen was little easier today. I felt power in my decision.

Then, my dopamine craving brain suggested me to search the torrent website for new movies and see good non sexual movie. But I decided not to open that website after I listened to my faint white wolf’s voice.

I will make similar decisions everyday every time. I will become master of my own decisions and master of my own mind because mind is a beautiful slave but a dangerous master.

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Day 29 Completed

My dopamine detox is eating me alive. I’m like a zombie. All day I get random thoughts eg go eat that jumbo burger, download and see a good movie, go buy that watch.
At last, I ate the burger and watched an animated movie. I did it to get dopamine. I’m in a mess.

If I don’t watch a movie or a good episode, I turn my brain into a dopamine craving zombie. BUT IF I see, then I’m sure I’ll get triggers and soon relapse. Help me guys.

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Don’t fall for these traps… You are doing good,focus on being productive whole day… There is no point of a nofap streak in which whole day one is watching screen and passing days, he will eventually fall later…Focus on building good habits…

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Thank you for putting it clearly. I’ll up my game.

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I was having some strong urges. This helped me to realise my goal.

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I’m happy to be of service. :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

Day 30 Completed

Aah shit!. It’s getting hard. Feels like I’m just one decision away from a relapse. All these hormones, all these cravings, they aren’t stopping. Everyday I wake up with urges. Man, it’s getting frustrating.
I need to up my game. Or I’ll relapse. I don’t want to relapse. I just want peace and relapse won’t give me peace.
I wish I never had found porn. I wish I never had masturbated. Wishes, they are just regrets. I can’t have regrets. I need to be strong. I must find my reason to continue noPMO. And I must re-evaluate my routine and level up.
I alone cannot get out of this hell hole. I need your help. Pls I need valueable advices from you guys. Pls share any tips or your experience that may help me.

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Day 31 Completed

Today was a stable day. I was horny. But I was always in control without even trying . The more torturing part of dopamine craving is over. That is because I started watching seasons for dopamine. Anime is off limits because I know I will be seeing that for peeking. Seasons are fine if they do not have sex scenes. I’m watching them for normal baseline dopamine. And not for peeking.
Its far easy to function without your brain acting as a dopamine zombie in addition to being horny.
Now whats left is just the hormones and urges. I’ll deal with them.
I won’t peak. I won’t watch porn. I won’t masturbate. I will strengthen the mental barrier between me and relapse.
I can’t go all my life without movies, seasons and entertainment. Can I? @_TIGER advise me bro.

Bro don’t write like this…you are doing nofap in wrong mindset this is negative thoughts…only focus on other things of your life… Fap nofap forget everything…
First 90 days don’t see any movies … in the beginning everything is difficult but after 120 you can see if you have strong willpower to skip s**ual content…this is like playing with fire…

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Bro please don’t write like this…when you are writing like this you are thinking about that and you keep past data safe on your mind…the best trick to clear everything is focus on other things…behaves like you don’t know what is fap or nofap…
How to do nofap ???
Answer : don’t think about nofap or fap…focus on other life part.

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@_TIGER you are right bro… I understand… Thanks… I’ll follow your advice and won’t watch movies. Anyways, I now know that movies lead to relapse. I almost relapsed today. So no movies from now on.