Hi all,
Just a quick background; I have been addicted for about 7 years now, and the most I’ve ever gone without porn was 14 days. This time I took a hard stance against porn and went 11 days, almost beating my record but the urges were too much and I caved. Looking back, I regret it now. Well, I always have regretted my relapses but this time I really thought I had the ball rolling and would get far.
I didn’t just relapse once yesterday, I binged that day. I didn’t relapse today but the changes are like night and day. I am so tired, and I don’t feel like socialising. I don’t even feel that happy. Something I realised though, I’ve felt this way the ENTIRETY of last year. I was always tired and unsociable, I was lowkey kind of depressed. When I was on a streak though, my mind felt clear and I felt so good. Being on a streak vs always binging porn is such a big difference and I’ve only now realised this.
Hopefully, I’ll get back on the horse and quit for good this time.
