In nofap community, the term flatline is the period of days when you are depressed, not feeling the benefits, poor mood, no motivation, sad etc. Some say it is when your brain is rewiring itself. Some say it is side effect of pmo withdrawl.
Now i will talk about my situation. I edged on my 22nd day. After edging that day, i lost my benefits. 6 days have passed after that but i am still not recovered from that horrible mistake. My state of mind is sad. Angry and frustrated some time. Although i have plenty of energy to do my tasks but it is a forced decision. It doesnt comes from my heart. I feel corrupted by that edging.
The reasons of my Flatline are :
- Edging. I feel i am cheating myself. My streak is not pure. I edged on 11th, 12th, 15, 20 & 22 day. I watched erotic videos for about an hour per day. 5 times. I will consider my reboot on 95th day of my streak.
- Sleep quality not improving. 20 days have passed. I am trying to quit anti depression drugs.
- Not much improvement in body. I expected the benefits more.
The very important thing is beside my miserable condition i am not going for a Relapse.
Today the urges came to watch some shit but i denied and told myself i am not giving up.
I am just 3 days away to break my personal best. I am optimist that sooner or later things will be in my favour. I must restore my faith in nofap. The guilt of edging will go away with each passing day.
Faking a smile.