Hey guys. This is Rajameghanan(17M). Some of you knew me. Today I am creating my first thread here. The reason behind it was that I have relapsed three straight days from March 15. The urges were too small but I can’t control myself. I have done a no fap streak for 76 days from November 29 to February 14. After my fall since Feb 14, I have relapsed nearly 8 times. I don’t want to happen this again. So, I am gonna start this thread where I can share my feelings and the things that happened in my everyday life. And when I get urges, this thread will remember me of its existence and my accountability. Thank you.
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I am so lazy today. I went to school to study for the exam. But, I was just playing with my friends all the day. Just read 8 details the whole day which requires just 45 mins to cover if read with focus. After that relapse. Then went to terrace to relax myself and read 5 details so far. Feeling sleepy now itself. Many people experience some pain or discomfort in some areas after a relapse and I have it in my eye. My eyes turn red every night and makes me fall asleep by 9 or 9.30 itself. That’s how the day went.
In simple words, it’s an unproductive day. Atleast let me make my tomorrow a productive day.
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Atu enakku natakkum 
. Ovvoru muraiyum nan oru ayvuk kuluvil pankerkiren. Nan patippatillai
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Avanga 7 per Raja Rani vilayadinanga naan adha vedika pathutu irundhen and then thanni ellar melayum oothi vilayadinanga afternoon full ah ipdi than pochu.
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Day 1 completed
No urges.
Studying very slowly. Just moving like a worm. But the best thing is I am moving rather than staying in the same place. Heading towards Day 2. Will complete it.
“I can do this all day”
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Every Sunday is boring for me. This Sunday is very important for me to cover the important questions for my upcoming exams. But when I feel bored, I don’t do anything other than watching TV or phone. It actually sucks. And because of the previous relapses, I can’t focus in my studies too. Everything is silent today. Even the weather is so cloudy like my brain. Any ideas to recover from boredom guys? I survived from PMO but this boredom is always making me weak all the time particularly in Sundays.
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Day 2 completed.
Same as yesterday but so lazy. Boring Sunday. Happy that I didn’t relapse.
I am inevitable
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It happened again. I relapsed again. Having urges since today morning but controlled it. But, after my lunch, I can’t control it. The urges were at peak. Automatic erection too. I think the overeating could be the reason for it. Though it be the reason, I should have focused on studies but I relapsed. Sorry guys. I should not have done this. 
Day 1 completed
Today Mar 21 had my Economics exam. Don’t know the answer to the compulsory question. Lost 3 marks and in 2 marks made a mistake.
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March 23 Day 3 completed
No urges
Studying all day for the upcoming exams
Planned to cover 20 lessons details today and 8 accomplished till now. 12 to go within 7 hours. That’s really a difficult thing to do. 
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