I relapsed few hours ago.
I’m starting this diary to end negativity in the last one.
A short recap of my years, I’m 22 yo, with no degree, currently no job, starting university again, different subject next October. And supposed to have knee surgery, and I want to visit my brother in Italy, but all my life plans on hold until I know the date of the surgery.
Last October 23rd, I quit university, got job and went to psychotherapy sessions and still going. This October 23rd I’m trying new university New subject.
(23rd of October, mu birthday )
I won’t mention this for the rest of the diary, I’m gay Christian Arab lives in Nazareth, Israel. I’m rare specie. Idk why this is my sexuality, but I’m learning to love myself.
I don’t like the errands my family put on me, from work and business stuff, when I’m feeling down, I can’t do it. so …although I might not be functional on errands that associated with my family. I will commit to thing associated with myself and not them, and that’s my plan for the next 7 days, so that i feel better.
- I want to do tiny work out, 60 push ups, 30 squats, 30 lounges, 30 pull ups.
- Practice piano one hour.
- cold shower
- read 5 pages
I couldn’t commit to anything this year, so I’ll start small, gradually will train my mind to do things outside of my comfort zone.