Brother
Orientations are not a decision
Some like girls, and what ever you do you can make them like guys
Some like both, you can choose to be with, (you don’t have to choose though)
Some attracted to boys whatever you do you can’t make them get attracted to girls.
I’m being honest and brave, I might be afraid. I tried alot, and thought about it alot, hating myself is wrong either way, if like being gay or like being bi.
I don’t think I can change, I tried everything, and honestly now I don’t want to try and change. Because nothing wrong with me, what’s wrong are people who sees me as devil.
For now I don’t want to try and be bi, as long as people including my family, trying to push me I won’t move. If I do something I do it for myself, not for people, and not to satisfy anyone,
As for you, you told yourself being a man on such fucked up community, is better than being a woman. (I’m not saying a man better than a woman) but this is the fucked up community.
I want to feel free, like it’s alright to be this or that, i can’t figure out myself, my true self, because people are not letting me, always trying to push me and manipulate me.
Why sexuality is so important to you?
By the way bro, your story is about gender, not sexuality. You accepted your gender. Congrats on every decision you made for yourself.
Back to the question, why sexuality matters?
Why hate me and push me away if I’m gay?
If one of the answers was religion/God/Sin, Check your self, because nothing justify being bad person to another human. Pushing them, hating them, treat them as freaks. So for those people, don’t do shit, and then come saying I do it for God. What ever your intentions even if it’s good intentions, nothing justify doing something bad to another person to get to your nobil goal.
Good intentions, doesn’t justify bad actions.