Prox's Journal(18 M)

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Relapsed
Notes to self - never remove adult filter in tachiyomi ;-;

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Day 0-1
Workout :white_check_mark: (4k steps jogging)
Study 10+ hours :x:(2 hours only)
reading book :x:
shower :white_check_mark:
was an good and sad day at night was having tons of mood swings almost had an panic attack ā€¦such an retarded coomer Iā€™m

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Day 1-2
Workout :white_check_mark: (did a lil jogging)
Study 10+ hours (did 7) :x:
Shower :x:
Meditation :x: (did a little deep breathing tho)
Reding :x:
Good day gonna make it better by not crying about past anymore gonna forgot all shit happened in pastā€¦

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Day 2-3
Wake up early :white_check_mark: (4AM)
Meditation :white_check_mark: (5 mins)
Workout :x:
Study 10+ hours :x: (did 8 h 45 min)
Reading books :white_check_mark: (read for half an hour)
Screen time less than half hour :white_check_mark: (10-20 minutes)
Was an good day with less urges was able to study with good focus and sadly wasnā€™t able to go out of home since lockdown is implemented again but would try to do workout indoor

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Day 4 (18th april)
Wake up early :x:
Workout :x:
Study 10 +hours :x: (did 2 only)
Shower :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (5 minutes)
Reading books :x:
Relapsed yeaterday again from nsfw content

Day 0-1 (19th April)
Wake up early :x: (slept for 10-12 hours)
Workout :x:
Study 10 +hours :x: (did 7)
Shower :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (5 minutes)
Reading books :x:

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Again relapsed today morning (13 hours streak rn)
After thatā€¦
Workout :x:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (20 mins)
Screen time (2 hoursā€¦ Wasted time in gaming) :x:
Study time : 5 hours
Reading book :x:
Just Wasting days

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Day 1-2
Wake up early 10PM - 4:20 AM :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (10 minutes)
Study 10+ hours :x: (did 6)
Screen time less than half hours :x: used for 3 hours
Reading book :white_check_mark: read atomic habits for half an hour
Workout :white_check_mark:
Cold shower :white_check_mark:

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Hey, well done man
Huge respect. Huge respect that your not going with the herd , Stay strong.

I personally think socializing with the right people can help u alot (not horny people) , i would call some family mamber daily, strengthen bonds ā€¦ boredom or loneliness or depression is the main cause of breaking your streak, talking to someone might help alot over the weak moments, donā€™t do everything alone cause youā€™re not alone :slight_smile:

Good luck man, I hope u have good companion to support u on this :slight_smile:

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Thanks you so much for your words @Rab_J but Iā€™m not worth for these I can hardly ever go to more than 5-10 days after trying from 1.5 years my highest streak is only 54 days tooā€¦ just relapsed 1 hour ago :pensive: after an really procrastinating day

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Day 3 - - - >> 0
Relapsed today
Waking up early :white_check_mark: (5:10 am)
Workout :x:
Meditation :x: (0 minutes )
Study - 2 hours :x:
Reading book :x:
Cold shower :white_check_mark:
Pretty bad day would make next streak much more just want to keep improving :sneezing_face::sneezing_face:

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Bro, u can do it, think deep, what is this situation that keep repwating it self, which maked u relapes, we start from this point so we do better next time. Believe in your self :slight_smile:

If u need help with anything ,plz wright here, many will help.

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Another relapse day
Workout :white_check_mark: (20 minutes yoga)
Meditation :x:
Study :x: (1.5 hours only)
Shower :x:
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Wake up early :x:

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Awesome ! :fire::fire::fire::fire: Push more !! Every single second is more important broā€¦ Find the root cause of relapse and never do the same mistake

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Day 1
Waking up early :white_check_mark: (5:30 am)
Workout :x:
Study 10+ hours :x: (did 6)
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 5 hours)
Reading books :white_check_mark: half an hour
Shower :white_check_mark:
Meditation :x:

Had urges today so just spent time listening to music but was an good day after bad oneā€™s

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Day 2

Tasks status
Wake up early :white_check_mark: (4 am)
Workout :x:
Meditation (10 mins :white_check_mark:)
Study 10+ hours :x: ( did 8 hours)
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Cold shower :white_check_mark:
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 1.5 hours)
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Day 3 check in!

Tasks status
Wake up early :x: (8 am)
Workout :white_check_mark: (did yoga for 20 minutes)
Meditation (10 mins :white_check_mark:)
Study 10+ hours :white_check_mark: ( did 10 hours) edit: did an nighter
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Cold shower :x:
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 3 hours)
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Day 4 check in

Tasks status
Wake up early :x: (9 am)
Workout :x:
Meditation :x:
Study 10+ hours :x: ( did 3-4 hours)
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Cold shower :white_check_mark:
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 2 hours)

Was pretty weak and boring dayā€¦ Damn I hate these :pensive:ā€¦ Tons of mood swings throughout the day when sat down to study wasnā€™t able to concentrate enough and just wasted the day away

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Day 5

Wonā€™t be adding an journal since am quarantined got tested and waiting for the results hoping for the best and fuck this fever :face_with_thermometer:

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Be positive . All the bestšŸ‘

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I mean stay positive from mind. Not from test.

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