Prox's Journal(17 M)

Relapsed
Notes to self - never remove adult filter in tachiyomi ;-;

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Day 0-1
Workout :white_check_mark: (4k steps jogging)
Study 10+ hours :x:(2 hours only)
reading book :x:
shower :white_check_mark:
was an good and sad day at night was having tons of mood swings almost had an panic attack …such an retarded coomer I’m

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Day 1-2
Workout :white_check_mark: (did a lil jogging)
Study 10+ hours (did 7) :x:
Shower :x:
Meditation :x: (did a little deep breathing tho)
Reding :x:
Good day gonna make it better by not crying about past anymore gonna forgot all shit happened in past…

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Day 2-3
Wake up early :white_check_mark: (4AM)
Meditation :white_check_mark: (5 mins)
Workout :x:
Study 10+ hours :x: (did 8 h 45 min)
Reading books :white_check_mark: (read for half an hour)
Screen time less than half hour :white_check_mark: (10-20 minutes)
Was an good day with less urges was able to study with good focus and sadly wasn’t able to go out of home since lockdown is implemented again but would try to do workout indoor

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Day 4 (18th april)
Wake up early :x:
Workout :x:
Study 10 +hours :x: (did 2 only)
Shower :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (5 minutes)
Reading books :x:
Relapsed yeaterday again from nsfw content

Day 0-1 (19th April)
Wake up early :x: (slept for 10-12 hours)
Workout :x:
Study 10 +hours :x: (did 7)
Shower :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (5 minutes)
Reading books :x:

Again relapsed today morning (13 hours streak rn)
After that…
Workout :x:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (20 mins)
Screen time (2 hours… Wasted time in gaming) :x:
Study time : 5 hours
Reading book :x:
Just Wasting days

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Day 1-2
Wake up early 10PM - 4:20 AM :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: (10 minutes)
Study 10+ hours :x: (did 6)
Screen time less than half hours :x: used for 3 hours
Reading book :white_check_mark: read atomic habits for half an hour
Workout :white_check_mark:
Cold shower :white_check_mark:

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Hey, well done man
Huge respect. Huge respect that your not going with the herd , Stay strong.

I personally think socializing with the right people can help u alot (not horny people) , i would call some family mamber daily, strengthen bonds … boredom or loneliness or depression is the main cause of breaking your streak, talking to someone might help alot over the weak moments, don’t do everything alone cause you’re not alone :slight_smile:

Good luck man, I hope u have good companion to support u on this :slight_smile:

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Thanks you so much for your words @Rab_J but I’m not worth for these I can hardly ever go to more than 5-10 days after trying from 1.5 years my highest streak is only 54 days too… just relapsed 1 hour ago :pensive: after an really procrastinating day

Day 3 - - - >> 0
Relapsed today
Waking up early :white_check_mark: (5:10 am)
Workout :x:
Meditation :x: (0 minutes )
Study - 2 hours :x:
Reading book :x:
Cold shower :white_check_mark:
Pretty bad day would make next streak much more just want to keep improving :sneezing_face::sneezing_face:

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Bro, u can do it, think deep, what is this situation that keep repwating it self, which maked u relapes, we start from this point so we do better next time. Believe in your self :slight_smile:

If u need help with anything ,plz wright here, many will help.

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Another relapse day
Workout :white_check_mark: (20 minutes yoga)
Meditation :x:
Study :x: (1.5 hours only)
Shower :x:
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Wake up early :x:

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Awesome ! :fire::fire::fire::fire: Push more !! Every single second is more important bro… Find the root cause of relapse and never do the same mistake

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Day 1
Waking up early :white_check_mark: (5:30 am)
Workout :x:
Study 10+ hours :x: (did 6)
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 5 hours)
Reading books :white_check_mark: half an hour
Shower :white_check_mark:
Meditation :x:

Had urges today so just spent time listening to music but was an good day after bad one’s

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Day 2

Tasks status
Wake up early :white_check_mark: (4 am)
Workout :x:
Meditation (10 mins :white_check_mark:)
Study 10+ hours :x: ( did 8 hours)
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Cold shower :white_check_mark:
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 1.5 hours)
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Day 3 check in!

Tasks status
Wake up early :x: (8 am)
Workout :white_check_mark: (did yoga for 20 minutes)
Meditation (10 mins :white_check_mark:)
Study 10+ hours :white_check_mark: ( did 10 hours) edit: did an nighter
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Cold shower :x:
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 3 hours)
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Day 4 check in

Tasks status
Wake up early :x: (9 am)
Workout :x:
Meditation :x:
Study 10+ hours :x: ( did 3-4 hours)
Reading books :white_check_mark: (half an hour)
Cold shower :white_check_mark:
Screen time less than half hours :x: (used for 2 hours)

Was pretty weak and boring day… Damn I hate these :pensive:… Tons of mood swings throughout the day when sat down to study wasn’t able to concentrate enough and just wasted the day away

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Day 5

Won’t be adding an journal since am quarantined got tested and waiting for the results hoping for the best and fuck this fever :face_with_thermometer:

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Be positive . All the best👍

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I mean stay positive from mind. Not from test.

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