I’ve relapsed again, i don’t want to say anything this time but huge respect to you @SonGoku22 congrats man you were able to go this far
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Your progress still shows man. You are thinking in the right way.
Keep on thinking in that right way. Maintain the move forwards. Go bro, were all beside you 
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I’m starting again.
I think I got caught in the chaser effect, the urges kept getting stronger after yesterday’s relapse. It felt like I was stuck in a loop, but I’m aware of it now.
I’m not letting it drag me down any further. Time to reset, refocus, and take back control.
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Seeing rhe pfp I thought it was @the_resilient_one , he used to have this pfp for a long time.
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Day one completed, had some urges but i just didn’t felt like doing it
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Day 1 
After messing up yesterday, I realized just trying to avoid urges isn’t enough. I seriously need to start working on myself. I’ve been wasting way too much time doing nothing.
From now on, I want to start doing more productive stuff, like reading, exercising, and just staying busy with things that actually help me grow. I don’t want to keep going in circles anymore.
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I’ve relapsed again, now i don’t usually get any urge for like 2 days only but i can’t just control it after that…
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Day 0 again.
Honestly, I’m feeling ashamed of myself right now. I even thought about deleting this forum and just disappearing… but I didn’t.
Because deep down, I know I don’t want to quit. I made a mistake, but I also know that running away won’t help. I have to face it and keep trying, no matter how many times I fall.
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Day one completed, as for now one thing I’m confident is that i don’t get any urge for like one or two days, I’ll push myself and will keep on going
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Lately, I’m just not able to find any real motivation. Everything around me feels toxic, and honestly… I’m starting to feel a little depressed. Even when I try to study or do something productive like today, I studied for a couple of hours I still feel sad inside.
My home environment is messy, my mind feels heavy, and nothing really makes me happy these days. I think that’s why I keep falling into this trap again and again just trying to feel a little temporary comfort or escape. I know deep down that it’s just an excuse… but it’s hard.
I keep saying “I’m trying” but I also know that just trying isn’t enough. I have to start doing, even if it’s small steps.
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Day 2 completed, my whole day was complete mess, i didn’t had any urges but my mood is really bad
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Guys I’ve got a good news and a bad one, the good news is that i got a girlfriend! And the bad things is that i relapsed, i mean i watched s short video (probably less than 3 minutes) and suddenly i started feeling really bad so i just stopped it ..
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I relaps again last night, the same thing… watched it for a few minutes and stopped…i don’t know how will i even control these urges
All these are problems that can be fixed bro. Dirty? Clean it. You studied for 2 hours? Brilliant king. Pat yourself on the back and be proud of it.
I can offer you encouragement: I recently hit day 25. Just as before when I hit this mark, I feel so, so happy inside. I have this incredible sense of joy in me. I felt exactly as you did whilst I was PMOing. Literally nothing made me happy. I only found satisfaction from workouts and pride in myself from study - but not happiness. These are your building blocks. Those bits of satisfaction and self worth. With time away from PMO, even the sun falling down on my has made me feel so happy.
See what PMO is taking from you? Your very happiness. Life is turning black and white for you as you say. Imagine the rest of your life like that. Now imagine it where even the smallest things fill you with joy. And also, where you are not too daunted by even the most challenging things.
There are problems, all that’s got to be done is for you to fix them. Go and fix them man . Live this life.
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Congratulations man. I hope that you can serve her well and that likewise she does to you. Love is more than a word.
In my opinion, watching P whilst having a gf is like cheating. Would you pay for a prostitute with your gf by your side? Would you do it with her there?
Make the most of her, and be strong bro 
. Well done.
■■■■ widens the void that you are trying to fill.
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I’m really ashamed of myself, I watched it again…i don’t know why i did that…i feel so bad right now
Ah I’m done…i knew her from like a few months and out of nowhere she proposed to me, 4 days ago, i just told y’all like day before yesterday and today she said “I’m bored from you”
I’ve relapsed a lot today…i really liked her and she’s acting like she doesn’t even care, now i think she’s already cheating on with someone…
Man, I feel you. It could be your routine not aligned with what makes sense to you. To be honest those type os phrases sound like depression to me. But don’t feel attacked. It’s just something we have to address, just like an imbalance of minerals in the body.
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Day 0 again, didn’t touched myself this time but I’m still ashamed for even looking at it, the type of crazy urges i used to get is lower than before..but i still need to work on it
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