Pizzamonsters diary

Heaven yeah my dude keep it strong

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I will! This woll be my fourth day, cant even relapse today. Because I wont be home today

Sorry for not updating yesterday. Friday night I had a party and I thought I would be free of work next day.but in the night my boss called me to say I had to work next day, so I had like 2 hours sleep left. So when I got home from work yesterday I just slept for hours during the day, making me unable to relapse. This will be my 6th day, just 10 hours to go

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Hey man, don’t give up, stay strong. We’re all with you here. On the same journey, fighting the same old demon.

I can understand how are you feeling. Try to start a new hobby, write a book, learn to cook, learn programming, go to the gym. Routine will show you that you are the most precious human being.

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I go to the gym for over 1.5 years now (almost 2). I do not have time for another hobby. So you might think how do you have time to relapse then?. Well it happends either when I have a shower or when I m in bed and I cant sleep and start thinking. This afternoom (in shower) I relapsed. Because it was in the shower I didnt have porn on hand. Im now a few hours further and I have to break the 48 hour mark. If I do I m gonna buy myself a game (I know which one) to keep me motivatex!

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Thanks for sticking with me. I m glad people like you even read my diary and take the time to respond or like. Im glad I found the app. Because like you said you people understand me and we can fight this monster called porn!

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Still going dont worry :slight_smile:

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Just relapsed. I was free today, didnt plan out what to do. I failed myself and Im gonna have to make it up. ‘This ll be the first day of the test of my life’

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Record how do you feel after relapsing in the journal, how unworthy were those 5 seconds of orgasm. What was the situation which led to the relapse. Whenever you feel like falling back again just read that journal entry and avoid those situations next time. Increase your will power by taking time to talk to yourself.
Next time before giving up post your thoughts here and try to communicate with someone.

Turn the page and write a new story.

Stay Strong, Happy Nofapping

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Yes sounds very familiar. Those free days are dangerous, before you know it you are binge watching YT or porn for a few hours… If you stick to planning the next day each night, it will become a habit and you will become a lot better at it. I too find it very hard though :confused:

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I think you should abstain from watching videos for a week. It appears that source of your urges is videos. Try it out. Same was the case with ne. I quit watching videos and stopped pmo for 34 days recently. But relapsed after watching a video because mind tricked me that I am strong now.

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Well I always promise myself that I will read my journal. But when I relapse it always starts with relatively innocent things, like music videos before I go to porn. Sometimes thoughts are enough to get my relapsed. I am however gonna write down how I feel and what happened next time. I also will try to write something before relapse as wellm thanks for your advice! And indeed, those 5 sec make me feel like shit

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Yup, maybe 2/3 relapses are due too freetime. I still am weak, so its best not for me to have nothing to so. I try to plan, but on free days I really dont know what else to do. I mean I do go to the gym but thats it. On normal days I have not enough time to relapse. I will have to find a solution for that time as well.

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Yup videos are the biggest problem. They do not even have to be porn. When I see a music video nowadays they show a lot of skin you know. That triggers me into a chain reaction ending up in a relapse. Watching less videos will help, so I wont watch yt for the next 2 weeks. Afterwards I ll see

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At this moment I havent relapsed for more than 2 days. 2 days and a little more than 5 hours (was a little late resetting counter)

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Yes brother, if we eliminate this video watching whether on internet or on TV, we will be able to cleanse our minds of the stupidity these sources supply. And also we will be able to giveup pmo for good for whole lifetime.

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Well I just relapsed yet again. I was having a nap when thought overcame me and I failed. I messed up really bad. I didnt watch a video this time but I did M and O. And I just realize somthing. I havent had a sunday in weeks in which I didnt relapse. So sundsy is my biggest trap.

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You are evolving my friend. Slowly you will get a hold on this habit.

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Defenitly! 2 plus days in now. I have to be carefull to not think Im over it, cuz thats when I usually fail. Wont relapse tommorrow tho. Have stuff to do then.

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Yes the weekends used to be my weakest points, i had to gather all the streanght i could find just to get over the weekends

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