This is my new diary and i made it because of new motivation and new goals. So i almost have control over pmo by god’s grace . Now time to clear off the other side effects/ bad habits out of my life.
Some of them are :- being lazy , not much active , not goal focused, dopamine addict.
These are some of the left over effects of pmo addiction and these are huge obstacles for greatness. So i am going to follow a certain routine for that. I know it is going to be very hard as I am free now a days so not being lazy is very tough job. . Always trying to be active is really tough .
My routine is going to be simple . I will try to complete these tasks daily
Running / exercise
Cold water bath.
Chanting/meditation
Studying for exams/job
Talking and plating outside
**6. No waste YouTube videos .
You can summarise this routine as not being lazy or being sober…
22 feb
I can say this dairy saved me from a relapse. So,
Running/Exercise
Cold shower
Meditation (do it now)
Studying ----(5 min)
Filled college forms .
I tried to not use much mobile but it didn’t work. I used a lot of YouTube that’s why I was feeling urges but i slept it off.
Also 1 nice thing happened to me. Today when I was exercising in ground. People saw me and a father took his son near me and said to do like me. It felt nice. Although i am weird in such conditions .I remember my father also used to train me when I was around him.
That’s all for today. May be tomorrow i will have lot of work.
Om
23 feb
Running/exercise
Cold water bath
Meditation
Study –
Watched a lot of YouTube
Watched another Terminator movie. Slept ,played games , went out. That’s all.
I am thinking to join library nearby . Let’s see. Alright
Good night .
24 feb
Running/exercise
Cold water bath
Meditation
Study 30 min +
Less YouTube today. A movie again . Joined library nearby. All going good. All by grace of God.
Om namah shivaay. Hare Krishna
25 feb
Running/exercise --(rest)
Cold water bath
Meditation
Study 1hr+
Filled form, went to library , read books and watched movies. Now chilling. Going to sleep soon.
Good night. Om namah shivaay
26 feb
Damn it i relapsed. I was frustrated and using so much YouTube today hence relapsed. I always fall for this trap. My only reason to relapse now is too much western content in YouTube. I tried to just watch Indian videos but they don’t pop up as much as western.
Anyways i will be busy from now on so i guess no relapsed from now on.
Running/exercise
Cold water bath
Meditation –
Study 2 hrs
Filled forms and enjoyed rest of day.
27 feb
Running/exercise
Cold water bath
Meditation –
Study –
Watched movie with mother. Tried to restrain western content. Feeling calm and hella strong…
Also I found a song named rapture. When I run to it. It just feels super cool… alright good night guys
28 feb
Running/exercise
Cold water bath
(These two things make my whole day chill)
Meditation –
Studying 1hr+
Today i watched no movie , just 2 episodes of punisher . Questions of upcoming tests.
Tomorrow i may go to khatu shyam and we decided to walk around 17 km before reaching there. So tomorrow is going to be chill day.
Alright . Good night.
1 March
Damn . I walked for 7:30 hrs with some rests in between. Hella tough. Not easy to do. We started our journey from 2 pm in Jeep . Some relatives . Then at 4pm we started walking barefoot and till 11:30 we walked . Not writing all details coz it’s 5am and we are back. Now going to sleep.
Running/exercise (not morning one)
Cold water bath
Study –
Good night.
Ya bro . But there were 1000s of people that time walking with us so it got easy. And when we took rest for just 2 min. I saw hundreds of people crossing us . That shit was disappointing…
Also barefooted brother. After some times i started walk like zombies😅. Tried to walk mostly on sand. If you ask me . Never going to do it again soon enough.
Bhai Vaishno devi wala J&K main hai💀itni jaldi nhi pahuncha jaa sakta waha par. Khatu shyam Rasjasthan main boht logon ke aardhya dev hai wahan tak log travel karte hai.
2 March
Another relapse
I am blaming it on sleep deprivation. My will was very low. I am slowly going to my old habbits that’s harmful. Sorry to disappoint you guys.
Slept till afternoon
Nothing much done…
Good night
. Always trying to be active is really tough .
alright good night guys
. Not writing all details coz it’s 5am and we are back. Now going to sleep.
. That shit was disappointing…
