"Discipline is the only way !" - Last words from TheFinalFrontier

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Then better listen to those who want to help you or try to help you.

Leave out your ego. Try to be better. Saying “I’m the greatest” doesn’t always help. I know this is a coping mechanism but it will not help in the long run. Recognizing the problem and people trying to help you will be the 1st step. Be humble

The 2nd most important thing, there are trolls out here. And they will troll you. But it doesn’t matter. It shouldn’t matter to you. The people who matter will be the ones who want to help you and despite being strangers here will show kindness.

The most important thing - Yes you can fix this. And only you can fix this and nobody else can do it for you. They have a supporting role and that’s where it ends. But you’re the only one who can pull yourself out of this. Have faith.

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Don’t impose these opinions on him. He doesn’t need a chick. Not everyone thinks like you.

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I want to give myself another shot.

I was really disappointed with myself and I have been fapping like crazy all this while !

But I want to give myself another shot. Because I have done it in the past. I have gone 145 days full NoFap. I have done multiple 60-90 day streaks, several 30 day streaks, several 14 day streaks. I know this journey has not been perfect. And right now I am probably at my lowest. Corona fucked me real hard. In the ass. Literally, before corona I was doing great with social skills, workout and everything in place. Then I fucked up. If anything, this just shows that I am WEAK. I need to toughen up. I need to clean my mind. Fully. I need a full detox. For me YouTube addiction got really bad during these corona times.

Now corona is almost over. Things are going back to normal. I know I am late already. But I want to heal myself now.

I am gonna take a 90 day challenge of not using any social media at all. This will be hard. I have deleted my Facebook and Instagram accounts already. But for me the major problem is YouTube and searching nude women on Google or on pornsites.

I will just try to limit my work. One of the reasons was that I was expecting too much work from myself and that is not healthy. These motivation videos also fucked me up. This hustle mindset and shit got toxic.

But I do need to work hard and get back on track. But now I want to focus on things that I love to do rather than grinding for the sake of it.

I need to clean my mind off of women and sexual thoughts. And social media. These fucking influencers fucked me up.

Social media has been toxic for me and I don’t need it anymore.

I will replace it with spiritual talks on an Android app because I would still need the dope. And this is a healthy way.

90 DAY PURIFICATION CHALLENGE :
No Social Media
No PMO OR Lust towards women
No casual browsing
Use computer only for work and not for entertainment

I won’t keep this challenge strict. So if I fail here and there. It’s fine. But I will do it for 90 days and report my progress after this.

As I said I am using this app for long term accountability. Daily posting on it is rather destructive to me.

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That’s a good start bro. Keep it up. From small goal to big.
All the best

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This thing is valid till the end of the life. No matter the age. The point is that when difficult situation takes you down, you just don’t go down that easy.
I bet you should mock the situation right now, because even after it has fucked you

like that, you’re still on your feet. You’re still standing.
You are not supposed to make it easy for the situation. Because you’re still alive.
Goggins has said - it’s okay to be fucked up. Do you really think anyone here (with some exceptions maybe) is in good shape? Do you think I’m in a nice situation right now? Do you think I’m happy and contempt with my life? Nope. And guess what? My streak is about 142 days rn. Yet I’ve cried in this month alone many times. Yes I cried! Do you think I’m going to stop? Nope I’m not going down without a fight. I’m not making it easy for the situation to take me down.

Yknow what mock your situation. Tell it that I’m still here. I’m still alive. Even if broken, even if destroyed, but I can still manage to get on my feet.

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Dude. I am happy for you. You seem a lot grounded than ur previous posts/comments. Please stay this way…humble. Don’t let your streak to get you cocky, cuz that’s when many of us get too confident and fall. There is nothing to be ashamed if you fail. You first have to accept that u need help and I can see that you have accepted. However, past is past. Stay strong and don’t shy away if you need someone’s support. Any one in this forum are willing to help. All the best.

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Because of my masturbation habit I lost so many hours and now I have a lot of pending work to do. Because of this I felt too stressed and overwhelmed. I resisted it throughout the day. I left the computer when I felt like shit and resisted it multiple times. But at some point I just peeked and it followed with ejaculation. It’s ok. I am not COUNTING it is a streak or anything. I will just record it as it is. The challenge continues. 1/2 days sober. I still did not use social media. Google images are a huge trigger. And have always caused the majority of relapses for me.

But it’s ok. I will probably block google altogether.

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I have ruined my life because of this. I wasted the whole of quarantine time. I could have worked out, build a better physique, worked on my side hustle and other things. But I went deep into my addiction. I finally admit that I am a slave to it.

I will make it impossible to relapse. My trigger is staying at room, and using computer. I will eliminate computer usage for myself while I am inside. I have no other choice now. This is the only way I was able to go for long streaks before. If I am not at home, I cannot relapse. I will work from outside as much as possible on outside places, cafes ,etc. where I can find WiFi now that I can actually do so. Quarantine showed me that I am weak and an addict and will perhaps be forever. I am not gonna try to fight it now. I am just gonna make it impossible to relapse. This is my last computer usage from my room. I will leave now. I don’t know how but I will manage to work from outside somehow. Would be difficult but better than relapsing again and again and again. Bye.

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That’s a good idea man. In Bangalore I used to sit in Starbucks and work from there. They give the free WiFi.

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I cannot find a place outside man.

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I am screwed. Someone save me from myself.

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no one can save your from yourself except you
My advice is that you do some rigorous exercise for half an hour.
It will give you endorphins and exhaust you out, and get you some sleep
I’m saying this because after staying depressed after a couple of months now I started it again
it felt great. It was really painful but I managed to push through and I felt awesome afterwards

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Nobody is gonna save me. This is the truth. I was praying to God for several months as well having lost all hope. But as the saying goes, God helps those who help themselves. I need to man up. I cannot trust myself anymore.

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get up and fight then

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I failed. I have relapsed twice today.

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Before this it was going fine. 14 days clean.

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Tell me O Great lords of NoFap @Tagore @josephvt @Nep_12 @anon65589122 @debellator @_TIGER @Brahmachari_17 and all the great Gods I forgot to mention, is there a secret to succeeding at NoFap ? Because I am fed up. I tried to go outside and work. But it rained. I cannot be afraid of staying with myself in a room. I need to become mentally stronger than this fucked up addiction. The last time I did a huge streak it was because I was outside all the time. I literally was afraid to stay at home. I would go outside, socialize a lot and then come back home exhausted. That is the only way. Or work outside. Covid was the real test of who the king of NoFap is. And I failed the test every single time. Now that it is over I still realize I need to be able to sit my ass down and work without opening a tab and writing dirty words spontaneously and falling off again and again.

At this point, I know I am annoying to you all. But please tell me. Is there a secret to succeed that we don’t know about yet. Or I just need to suffer. Because I have literally tried it all. From spiritual help to everything you can imagine. I even fucked a whore in my life because I did not want to fap.

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I gave you this advice
why don’t you use it? for now?

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I am a weak little man.

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I am a pussy. I am a weak ass pussy.

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