It’s been a while since I’ve restarted a diary. I think it’s a good time to begin one now.
Also changed my pfp. Wanted to go all out.
It’s been a new phase of life for me since the last one. The last diary began in a time of uncertainty. Of whether I would get into a medical college. An introverted kid who got into fapping. Who barely went out and didn’t hit the gym or talk to people so much face-to-face, since it wasn’t the time. I was focused purely on studies back then.
Now it’s different. With GOD’s help, I got into med school, got bigger and muscular than before, am much more confident socially and have no issues talking to people. Since my focus isn’t purely on studying but on building myself up, I can afford to go out and meet people, besides studying.
The only issue is the common problem that affected me then. That affects me now.
The habit of PMO.
I am here to get rid of it. I learned from my last relapse, so here’s a list of things
Things I am already doing:
Cold shower daily
Work out consistently
Practise basketball when needed
Balance studies and my social life well
Things I need to do:
Have a diet plan and follow it, no snacking unnecessarily
Being disciplined enough to do chores on time
Keep track of daily tasks using a good reminder app
Ace my studies (>70% marks…in med school this is quite difficult)
Log my day on rewire companion and reflect
Wake up by 5
Sleep by 10
No cheat days
Not seeing Minecraft YouTube videos
Finish my tasks ahead of time
Work out (gym/home workout)
Plan the next day
Call up people as required
Check-in to Habitica
At least 5 minutes of improvement-focused reading
Check-in to Rewire Companion
At weekends I usually go out with friends, chill and do other non-academic stuff. So I’ll not have a checklist for weekends since I want to have fun as well. But weekdays, it’s better that I’m focused.
I don’t want to watch Minecraft/ play the game since sadly my mind has associated my childhood favourite game with relapsing. I usually relapse subconsciously because the trigger is watching just a regular Minecraft YoutTube video. As much as I love the game (I’ve been playing it for over 10 years) right now, it’s not worth it. Not until my brain reboots.
I am praying this works. Going all in this time.