Day 40:
When the cold wind flows through my face it brings all the memories which have made me the man which I’m now - some imaginary, some real. I don’t care how long it takes but the most coolest thing about this season is the environment itself, a real self discovery, a real winter arc.
Life is hard and being a man is too hard hard for feminist to gulp but it’s the truth.
Day 41:
World is longing for greed and facing the dire consequences
Day 42:
Life has been stagnated for the past few days. No thinking, no capabilities, no remorse for my actions leading to nothing but a void which I can’t avoid. The concept of fighting your own demons has been popularized by few famous influencers who think its all about fighting about demons but do we really think that it’s the demons or we who are responsible for the situation which we are in so it’s better we should understand our things which we are living in. There might be metaphorical demons which we actually talk about or the real ones too. Who knows the person beside you is that demon or even writing this post as well. So those who are reading this remember
Not all glitters are gold some are just dirt coated on filth as well
Day 43:
Having a companion is a blessing but what if the same companion is the devil of your life.
Day 44:
“What is your purpose?” A question which received its multiple variations at its different ages. Some accomplished with little or no change and majority are those who dies without accomplishing before there actual death. So you know, it’s just to say you never know the future.
Day 45:
When you understand even the closest person whom you want to talk is not want to talk to you because he doesn’t want to then understand he is not closes in reality je is a just a distant man having a legal close bond and the best part is that you it was never meant to be someone too close even if it is your closest relation as a wife, a mother, a father or a brother or anything. So crying or feeling sad over it will only result in your own demise of emotions where you get too emotionally attached. I don’t why I’m writing this and maybe someday I can back off with with my words but inside the deep abyss of my heart, the former will always resonate whenever shit happens.
Day 46:
I remember one day one of my roommate told me that I’m not his friend which made me astonished since he talked to me properly and respectfully and we used to have a lot of fun together but when he said those words to me I was shocked, felt rage but at the same time got the idea
If someone is talking to you in a proper manner it doesn’t mean he is friends with you, sometimes you need to understand between friendship and aquaintanceship
It was a new experience for me as it never happened to me so at that point of time I understood the importance of keeping distance from others to not make yourselves too hurt. Although people will now identify you as a rude one but deep down you know the answer to that judgement , no need to justify it every time since
No one and yourselves are bound to justify your behaviour, it’s a personal thing which get ease with time.
Day 47:
Forgiveness is the tool when a warrior lacks it, it makes him weak and a slave when embraces it makes him greater than the warrior.
Asking for a forgiveness is the most hardest thing a man can ever done, you need to kill your ego for that, which is the toughest in this world.
Only the brave can do it. Question arises : Are we brave?
Day 48:
New calm day like a breeze but for every storm to come there’s a silent and calm breeze which comes before it. So surveillance is important for a following days.
Day 49:
Foggy day even can’t see a meter distant objects, that’s is our future - uncertain and unseen every step is a new event happening in your life but it get altered with your present. You might know what I meant 
Day 50:
Half century completed and my day of travelling has been great with all the experiences seems like new one. Lush green meadows, clear skies, twinkling star nights, was burnout reliever. Stress has been suppressed for a while and a new day brings me new.
Day 51:
I saw in an insect crawling on my bathroom floor, trying it’s way hard to climb up the wall when I was pouring to shoo it away but it’s resilience taught me one thing, i.e., in life, failures are like pouring water and you are like that insect climbing up the wall of your success, this resilience I may say is what the people lacks.
Day 52:
A time when computers where a part of fun but now they became an external organ. Children used to play outside but now devices captured their devices by their screen. Scholars and scientists were the real influencers rather than so called Tiktokers. Relationships were more real than just a show for clicks and likes. People used to respect people letters of the people far away, today even e-mails or chats are being ignored/blocked. Passions have been diverted from being an intellectual or sportsperson to being a twerker in social media. Pornography deepens its roots in the surface internet destroying the creative minds of youths destroying their careers. Women objectification rose to power and done by the so-called women who advocate for feminism. Masculine urge to to bring change to the world, protect, provide has been diminished. Corruption reached its zenith and we are battling with addictions I presume. Changes are inevitable but the recent brought destruction more than their benefits due to its attacking nature on people’s reward circuitry.
Day 53:
Sometimes an advocate becomes a devil and come in protection of the devil himself. The amount of sheer pain taken by a person to build a house of cards turns to dust if one small failure makes the whole house into pieces. The most painful thing about failure is that you know you will crumble to pieces but the desire which amplifies for a short time gets you succumb to it and makes you fall with heavy guilt and hopelessness.
Day 54:
It’s been a hard and tiresome day today, since foggy weather is a challenging thing with a challenging mind and if we take some time to get up we get the same foggy atmosphere around us. Lives were never been worse if we omit the death part during the old ages. Physical torture is more of a mercy than mental torture.
Day 55:
We have a tendency to demonize everything without hearing the other side of the story. Take an example of our smartphones, we tend to demonize this product for an actual reason that it takes our productive time and makes us addict but we also don’t want to hear the story of the other side that what are the benefits we can achieve if we turn smartphones on our side also with other digital devices. They are numerous examples we can take from our daily life where we lack understanding since we don’t want to hear the other side of the story.
Fig 1 : Mindlessness induced through smartphone addiction
Fig 2 : Productiveness of smartphone
One more example of Norah Vincent, a former radical feminist who thought that life of men was on a easy mode than woman, to prove her point she disguised herself as a man and lived as a man for a eighteen months, her journey made her realized that how hard is a man’s life, how a woman treats a man which made her change her views and later she committed suicide by trauma of living and experiencing the life of a man.
Fig 3 : Norah Vincent
Fig 4 : Self-Made Man
We still got a easiest thing to bring our views without having a conflict - debates. When two contrasting characters stand on a dais telling their contrasting views on a similar topic , then we tend to understand the view of two sides. It’s upto us whether to go right, left or remain at the centre but we can be on a side that matters without any violence most probably.
Fig 5 : Debate
That’s all for today.
Day 56:
Cars have been a necessity for middle-high income earning people like a statement of their eliteness and prestige and here comes out public transport helping everyday people to reach their destination with a small sum of money hence helping in the economy of a nation. Some countries in Europe has a free public transport services to motivate people to buy less cars and use public transport more. These cannot be seen on some developing and developed countries since it’s never been brought to mainstream the benefits of using a public transport. Countries like China and India have a bad traffic congestion even on highway special mention to Bengaluru, a cosmopolitan city in India - home to India’s IT and space hub. I will not say don’t buy cars as it will come handy on our trips which even buses will not go for it’s aesthetics and controlling it but at the same time where climate change is a fact we need to also adopt vehicles like bicycle and buses to minimize traffic congestion and mitigate environmental hazards.
Day 57:
On a cold winter, with a leg pain, body demanding rest and in life you are surrounded by Mr Charrington. So it’s a normal life with nothing but adventure.
Day 58:
A sense of excitement is always been a part of everyone’s life whether it is celebrating their success or enjoying the destruction of others. But how to control it ? Do we ask about it? Simple answer - we can. Brief answer - Through mindfulness practices like exercises, meditation, or breath control. Now the question should arise - What are the logic behind the above methods?
All the above methods could be done only through conscious decisions with our conscious mind leaving behind the need of our sub-conscious mind. So yeah it can be helpful for our journey but are there other things as well? That should be our next question. Simply I can tell that there are some techniques you can do apart from the other three which I already mentioned but it is better that you should find yourself. Unless with a trial and error, I don’t think our success can be achieved.
Day 59:
Mind block is one of the curses that people suffer in this journey. It feels like you have been denied access to use your cognitive skills. Your memory, understanding of the environment all comes to a halt. Fapstronauts considers it as a flatline and it is the worst phases of fapstronauts. Challenging phases need creative ways to tackle and that too when you are lazy as a sloth.
