I feel like I have lost my focus power. My mind keeps changing thoughts every seconds. I am not able to concentrate in studies at all. I will try starting daily 15 mins meditation from tomorrow.
Have to start exercising too but for now I will try to be consistent with meditation.
I am actually suffering from my worst. I have never felt this useless in my entire life. I canât focus on anything. I feel completely trapped. I relapsed yesterday.
My head starts paining once I spend more than 15 mins on my desk. After 15-20 minutes, I feel like leaving everything and just go and lie on bed.
I have no clue how can I recover from this . All efforts seems pointless at this moment. I keep making schedule but still my whole day gets wasted due to procrastination. I have probably made 3 schedule for completing the backlogs since yesterday but I keep failing to sit and study.
I have bunch of classes from tomorrow, and I donât know how will I cover my backlogs after 8-9 hrs of classes.
I just canât express how much stressed and pain I am feeling in my head right now. I have probably reduced my food intake to half, I donât eat enough rn , everything feels tastless.
All I can say right now is that I will try my best to meditate for 15 mins tomorrow. Rest I donât know what is going to happen now.
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Sorry to hear that. .
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I almost busted into tears after writing that message.
Two things I will try to do from tomorrow :-
- Fix sleeping time
- Meditation
They will probably help me come out of this
Last relapse was on 16th feb , I am now 3 days clean. I havenât fixed anything good in my life right now but I have started to feeling a bit confident that I will.
I have made a plan for backlogs and Now the stress level is way low. I want to see what happens when I give my 100% to my studies , For that I will slowly start increasing my study time everyday.
Will try to start posting daily journals from now. That is a great way to track progress!
Relapsed again
I donât know what to do, I am tired of myself.
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Set Micro targets like , what youâll do in next 30-50 minutes. Work on it with full focus and after completing it give yourself reward like 5 minutes of gaming, lying on bed for few minutes, etc. Donât set monthly or weekly or even daily targets. Just set hourly targets and work on it.
All the Best !! 
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Man, I can feel your pain. I had some plan that I made in October 2020, but this procrastination and PMO never allowed me to achieve those. I have been trying to study various things but same like you I start to feel lathergic after 15 to 20 mins of watching lectures. BTW you mentioned about backlogs, may I know what course are you pursuing and are you from India?
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Hi @LL667788 ,
Yes I am from India. Currently I am pursuing CA, I am on Intermediate level and my attempt is due in Nov 23. Those exams are very much important because they will decide my Firm for articleship/training. My target is to get into Big 4s for articleship.
Last year , I failed to get into my dream colleges. So now , only way to compensate that is to get into Big 4s as they provide great exposure.
Would love to know about you too.
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Hey bro, foremost sorry for the delayed response was jam packed with todayâs deliverables. BTW nice to know you, and I am also from India. I would like to share a few points below, it may help.
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So the first problem that you are facing is simply happening cause of PMO itself, you have to somehow escape the dopamine rush your mind is seeking for. Try to convince your mind bro, itâs tough I know, but if you constantly try to tell your mind that you donât want that cheap dopamine you will somehow get the courage to get beyond those urges. Try to set small targets every day and most important please appreciate yourself for every small effort you put, make sure you celebrate it like you have won something huge.
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Avoid instant gratification trap, cause of PMO our mind is rewired in a way that itâs always looking for some instant gratification no matter what work you are doing, if itâs not getting the reward you will get bored, you have to train the mind that the real reward comes with patience and commitment, it doesnât happen overnight.
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Whenever you study, try to take power naps in between. Your mind need rest and there is no harm in taking some power naps they will keep you calm and help you improve your focus, if you try to force yourself to study then it will only make things worst. I used to spend time learning new things and sometimes technical part was boring that I use to take some power naps which helped me in many ways.
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Try to use YouTube as a resource for learning, during my engineering I watched few random videos where professor was teaching how to solve some numerical and bro that same question came into my exam lol :D. So search for the subject where you believe itâs tough to deal with. Also, if you have a friend tag him along and study together, learn from each other.
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This is something personal which I wonât recommend, but I want to share this. During my Bachelor of Engineering course I was failing in the worst way, I kept on giving reattempts of the exam, but I kept on failing, I was way too anxious and depressed at many levels as I was going for my last shot which is mercy attempt, I remember the advice one of my senior gave to me which was fill the pages as much as you can, even if you donât know the answer fill that damn sheet and also if there are diagrams make sure to draw them to fill the sheet more that advice literally changed my life. Not only I cleared those 3 mercy attempts in one shot, but also cleared my rest of the engineering flawlessly and there was not even a day when I would fail again. You can say it was a life-changing event for me, but yes, itâs risky, and I wonât recommend that. I used it only cause there was no more hope left for me, it was a do or die, and I decided to take the plunge.
Since you have time, I would say plan things accordingly, take all the resources you can, because time wonât come back. Donât be hard on yourself, it is said to keep our thoughts positive because whatever we think in present the same energy will come back to us from this nature, so make sure to think positive, thatâs the only way to make life easy.
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Thank you so much for your advice.
And yes , Power naps are so helpful for me as well. A 15 min nap after lunch is equal to like 4 hrs of sleep haha.
Yep, I got pretty decent time right now. I am targetting AIR ( top 50 ). So, definitely have to put efforts in it.
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Haha true power naps are best 
and I am glad to be of some help. 
Do well brother, put small efforts everyday and I am sure you will make it in the top 50. 
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Thank you very much , and good luck to you too.
Btw , I have completely changed my schedule. I donât think I can continue as a night owl anymore. Will start waking up early from tomorrow , It might take me few days to get in a fixed sleep schedule.
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Relapsed
The urges got so bad, and my mind tricked me to fall again.
I take this back, I tried to wake up early and I got succeeded in that. But I was unable to study just after waking up which defeats the whole purpose. I will sleep at around 1-2 am and wake up at around 8 am now.
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Time lagta hai bhai change hone main thodha aur try karna warna force mat karna apne aap ko
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Waking up early was not an issue but studying just after that⌠I have never done that. I feel highly focused at night than early morning. So I think nightâs better for me to study
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Last 3 days went so bad, I relapsed multiple times due to chaser effect. Finally got out of it. Now I am ready to start again.
Last night , I made a full plan for my studies for next two weeks. All I need to do is to execute it properly then I will be out of this backlogs prison.
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Same happened with me bro. Iâm out of it too now.
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Good that you are out of it , Letâs go for a clean March!
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2023-03-02T18:17:00Z
3 days completed, Here is the update of last two days
Highly disappointed by study hours, This number wonât get me through, I literally didnât study anything today. I really need to improve this.
However, I completed rest of all the habits I added to do. I have started with very basic workout for 15-20 mins only. My body is paining right now because It was just my day 2. This pain usually fades away after 5-6 days (I remember when I exercised for this much time around two years ago, funny as well as depressing at the same time).
Looking forward to a great tomorrow.
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