Day 4 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:45 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
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Day 5 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:45 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Day 6 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:45 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Day 7 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (6:25 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Day 8 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:45 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Not so productive but I am going good now , No heavy urges at all. I have stopped fantasizing completely. When those thoughts come in my mind , I quickly divert my mind into something else. Although I have stalked woman in real life for few times in past two days, But I am trying to control it too. I feel like I am going to get free from this poisonous world of PMO and Lust.
Day 9 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:50 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Day 10 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:45 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs (Including lectures)
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Day 11 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am (4:45 am)
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
Day 12 :-
Wake up before 6:30 am
Exercise
Drink enough water
Meditation
Vajrasana after meals
Only homemade food
Study > 4 hrs
Gaming time < 1 hr
No youtube for entertainment
Sleep before 10:30 pm last night
I don’t feel heavy urges at all. I feel like I can handle this. This is not tough, If I relapse again it will be my own fault. Being productive is very difficult for me here , But atleast it’s better than doing PMO.
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Day 13 :-
I did too bad today, Did gaming all day. I don’t think I need to post it today. Tomorrow is Rakshabandhan , I am excited for it.
My school is opening from Monday, That will be my first regular day in my new school since 2020. Earlier I went only for giving exams. That may be a good experience for me (I hope so).
My streak will be 2 weeks tomorrow. I am doing good this time. Although there is a lot of laziness and procastination in me but I have no heavy urges to watch porn. Those thoughts come and go, I don’t give them time to stay in my mind.
I will get back to routine from Monday.
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Why did you put cross here? You woke at 4.45 am right?
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That was a mistake , I didn’t woke up at 4:45 am that day. I have corrected it now.
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Day 18 :-
My school is open now and I am going regularly. I am not feeling that much uncomfortable in this new school as I was expecting. Teachers are pretty good here too , not like other government schools.
No heavy urges in this journey yet. I am no longer thinking about porn everytime , even though my routine is messed up. Peeking and Fantasizing are relapse for me too , that’s why I avoid them completely. If I don’t think too much about urges they disappear very easily. Although I still stare at girls in streets and I really want to stop it but I know I will stop it too as long as I don’t relapse again. Lust is still there and it needs to get removed from the mind , But It will take time.
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Day 22 :-
I really don’t have any desire to relapse again, the urges come and go. I handle them easily. They are not strong enough to make me relapse. I don’t have time for another failure now , The only option left for me is to keep going and don’t let my guard down.
The desires for sexuality is still there , I still stare at girls . But I don’t have any desire to masturabte , because I know I can’t afford another failure. The desires for opposite gender will stay there because it’s how the man is made. I need to learn how to control it and it will take time . But the most important thing is that I don’t watch porn or masturbate again.
Everyday it’s getting better for me.
I need to work on my goals , I don’t have time to do this poisonous thing again.
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Day 31 :-
I completed one month today. This is the highest streak of my life.
The thing which I did too much these days is gaming. But I think that’s ok , doing gaming is much better than PMO. I don’t want to go to pmo world again.
On a side note , the game which I play most is brawl stars.
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I failed once again , It was a very good run. I am not sad after breaking this streak because I came to know that how to control my urges better. I failed but I have learnt a lot from myself.
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