Hey guyz,
As you can see my username is nirvan.
I believe that everyone has the potential to be anything he desires to be.
It’s just that he hasn’t really tried to do it.
Anyways my highest streak was around 55 days and i am writing this diary for sake of writing it, no particular goals behind it.
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For the start i would like to say the updates might be a bit irregular nd replies might be late but i will definitely do it.
So i started watching porn around the time i was 13 before that i used to masterbate. I didn’t really had any problems with it as i knew nothing about it nd i had a goal to do it - that is incearse my sexual mastery for future. Anyways that’s how i started porn but later on it grew into an addiction.
I had developed several problems due to it such as social anxiety, objectification of women, and the one that was biggest of all - lack of motivation.
And i started my nofap journey, although it only really started when i understood it didn’t really did anything helpful for me and was harming me.
NOTE THAT - there is difference between knowing and understanding.
Anyways let’s end this.
My first day for this streak.
My advice to all - do your work, don’t think about it and you will be fine.
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Update
Underestimated the chaser effect altough i didn’t watch porn i still masturbated
Anyways that was a day before
Nd now there should be no problems
Goal 1:- 5 days
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Welcome my friend. Thank you for sharing all that.
It is good that your goal isnt too high in the beginning
I will be reading your diary and hope that you stay strong!
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Then i definitely won’t disappoint you
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Hey guyz
Here i am with another update
Day2
I felt little urges in the day but i fought through them. Other than that my day wasn’t really productive i would say as i just couldn’t study, maybe because of lack of sleep my cognitive abilities were less.
Anyways that’s all i have to say nd special mention for anthe
Bro i hope that we can beat this addiction together.
Best of luck:+1:
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Thank you very much!
I’m on day 2 as well. Let’s do this together!
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Argh my sleep
Anyways let’s do this together
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In between there a lot of pmo nd other stuff that happened nd after that i really wasn’t in the mood to write the post.
Anyways guyz here is a summary to what i did
Basically i collected information on various stuff from what to do in a conversation to how to have an amazing personality with various aspects covered ranging from body to clothes to body language.
Today my day 4 has been completed.
Looking forward to the future
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So another update is here from my side
Day 8 (over)
So guyz this how it is the days in the start are overwhelming for me, i don’t know about others as everybody is different. Specially due to the fact that i use social media very less and other apps for really specific purposes, i don’t know or maybe because i have done it before so it’s easier.
Anyways guyz the days are just passing nd i have started to become really active nd my mind is like a monkey, really unfocused.
Fun fact:laughing:
today while i was out with a friend. While we were doing our stuff, the girls there were having spontaneous consistent eyecontact with me.
That’s all from my side.
Oh and right my first goal for 5 days has been completed.
My second goal is for 10 days.
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Contgratulation bro! I will be reading your diary
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Hey guyz here is another update and i have completed day 9.
So i have just somehow finished my day. I am really clueless about how it passed other than some reading and youtube i didn’t really did anything. Anyways due to my messed up sleep schedule my time during “day” is really less.
Well today i am thinking of staying awake whole night. I just hope that it works.
Anyways that’s all from my side.
And welcome to @udaCisie for joining me on my journey
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Hola Amigos,
Everyone is welcome to read this diary and like become a part of the journey.
So it’s already 3 year since I last posted…
As you can see I am still here, I have not been very successful in dealing with it:smiling_face_with_tear:
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Anyways, the plan is to continue my dairy from the three years back and share some of the thoughts, progress and basically whatever comes my mind when I am writing the post…
I am very thankful for everyone join me in my journey.
I hope we have some intresting conversations in here.
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Okay so let’s get started.
So I was pretty successful on the streak I had three years back and it reached around 54 days or so.
But that’s exactly when I knew that it wasn’t working.
Like I went from from relapsing on day 1 to day 7 to day 54 but whatnext?
Then will i relapse at like day 90 and then another streak for 160 days… But there was no end in sight and honestly didn’t want to do that… Investing so much into a habit that i want to leave…
Can you imagine that most of the day you are focused onto “not watching ■■■■” and that’s the routine you have been following for like the past days of your streak and then you relapsed…
Can you imagine that void in you?
Well I did so I left and I didn’t want to continue to dvelve on this subject that I just couldn’t anything about?
Well, now that I am back so I already have figured what to do?
Bye… See you in the next post.
Cliffhanger 
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It’s a little late but it doesn’t really matter.
Anyways so as you can see from the last post that I like the things that are organised and scientific.
So it tried it that way to limit the time for PMO but it failed terribly.
And I need to make changes, here my goal is not to leave m but to keep it in control… Because physically there is no difference between m and sexual intercourse.
But I would like to leave ■■■■ because it has many issues.
It is one of the leading causes to m
What my goal here is semen retention and building a good routine and lifestyle & i know for sure as long as I follow the process I will get to my destination for sure.
So for semen retention and to get away from p… I was doing pretty good as I followed nofap and NoPMO this for a while week but when I tried to consume it in a small bit it worked as well… But when I took the second bit is when It actually collapsed.
I guess it was around day 9/10… And then it continued for a a whole 3 days.
And this process repeated 4 days later again.
So all in all I knew that I was able to control myself to not watch ■■■■ and think of most of this stuff but when I consume it and an accident happens… That is… I ejaculate then all the confidence built collapses
It’s like a castle in the air.
So I have decided to quit PMO for 10 days and strictly…
Today is already the 3rd day since and today I had an accident as my mind went crazy thinking about it but I nipped it in the bud.
Then next I have decided to wait for day 10 to decide what to do next.
Now for the routine thing…
Our body and brain is very organised… So we are way too organised to be unorganised.
So what you might be thinking is disordered for you is actually in order… It’s just that you may not be able to think of it as such.
So I already have a preliminary idea about how I want my day to go.
And the simple principle is that I will start with all the difficult tasks and then we will do less difficult tasks and by the end of the day we will have time for enjoying and having fun.
From difficult to easy.
Next I needed the anchors to set the time change in motion.
So basically what I did it to set up time for the particular activities… Like that particular activity at that time only.
This is due to the fact that I might not be able to do difficult tasks suddenly or i might not be able to change those thinking habits in a day or two and there will definitely be lots of accidents on the way…
Where I just didn’t get the desired results or other things
So we need to be able to cope with it.
So what I did is pretty simple but it helped me a lot… I set the time up for waking up and going to sleep.
And at that time you will be there most of the time.
I also set the time up for my meals… Just doing this in a matter of 15 days has transformed my life a lot.
Now I have added the bathing, meditation and having a firm posture into it as well.
We will see where it goes.
As for the routine… I followed it but because I was way too focused on the Code:Phantom thing that I have made… It’s about social mastery
So I put other things aside and focus till it’s done…
And as you can see i had decided to quit PMO totally for 10 days so I can’t just use up all my willpower for other things.
Anyways thanks for reading with me guys…
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