New to the fourms here. I have been watching porn from the age of 13 to 30, which I just turned today. Prior to this, I was on a 10 day streak but relapsed after the anxiety of realizing what little I accomplished in my time leading up to 30.
I have made so many attempts to quit porn in the past but have fallen short each time but now I’m just ready to be done with this plague for good. I’ve lost too many years to porn. Using it as a crutch to deal with rejection and failure to the point where it numbed me from that inner pain; the pain that you learn from, the pain that motivates you. Instead, I felt nothing because I was too caught up in that high after PMO, oblivious to everything else happening around me.
In an effort to motivate me for my next attempt,
I started reading the book “No More Mr. Nice Guy” by Robert Glover and listened to a podcast from anti porn advocate Gonzalo Salinas. Both stressed one very important key to self improvement and porn recovery: Asking for help.
“You can’t do it alone”. That message from Gonzalo has reverberated in my head for the past few days. To be fair, I have heard this message constantly before throughout my journey in porn recovery but its something I have completely disregarded as I tend to be stoic and introverted, so I never reached out to anyone or felt too ashamed.
But now, I know in order to beat this, I have to take different approach that I’ve never done before. I’m running out of options and life just keeps going on.
I hope to learn from all of you. Encourage you in any way I can. And most importantly, free my self from porn addiction with the hopes that the others in this fourm can do the same. I will offer all that can.
Also I want to apologize for this long introduction. I look forward to going on this path of recovery for a better life with all of you.
Believe in me that believes in you,