what I changed and why I believe I will have a long streak
Well first of all, I transfered my computer to the TV lounge!. Yep, I was a fool to have my computer in the privacy of my room. If I had placed my computer in TV lounge when I was on day 100 or on day 68, I wouldnt have relapsed.
I will Install po*n blocker app on my mobile. This the first time I’ll try this.
I will make everyday productive, healthy and happy. I will focus on just one day at a time.
I will stay away from all triggers, be busy, offer namaz in masjid, read Quran with translation, exercise and meditate everyday.
I will also read a self help mindset book for changing mentality.
I will also make a friend of mine my accountability partner.
I am prepared to change my habits and move out of my comfort zone. And I am ready to take all the pain that comes with withdrawal. Namely the irratability and mental fatigue. I’m 25 years old. I’m fat. I have destroyed my life with my own hands. Now enough is enough. I can change. And I will change. And I will never give up.
Check in Day 1
I can change my habits if I become conscious in the moment of decision. I don’t have to control my actions all the time, just in that single moment of decision when I’m given a choice.
1 choice brings me closer to my goal.
The other one brings me closer to relapse.
It’s my responsibility to choose right. Rest will be alright.
Check in Day 2
I watched anime and an episode of a series today. I’m gonna stop anime and series now. Not because to avoid triggers. But because it’s a waste of time. A movie or an episode a week is okay for me. My main goal is to avoid wasting time.
Check in Day 3
All you have is the present. Your past is your present that once happened. Your future is a present that is yet to happen. And your present is a present that is happening right now. Control this because everything else is automatic. The breath you are taking right now, the task you are doing right now, this is what that matters. Make your present matter.
Check in Day 0
Big talk by me. The fact is, I couldn’t study with all the disturbance in TV lounge so I move my computer back into my room. I went from no movies to restricted time for series to full blown relapse.
I just don’t have the willpower to take necessary steps for a stable long streak. I know what to do and how to do. But I don’t have it in me anymore to try again. I will sulk for a few days, make a half hearted attempt to quit again and then go into deeper depression.
I wonder, how the hell did I reach day 101, day 63, and day 91!!? What have I done to myself?..(deep breath) … I can’t win and I can’t accept defeat either. What a delimma!.
Just don’t accept defeat, you’ll win one day for sure bro. Focus on self improvement rather than focusing on the streak, it works wonders.
Thanks bro… I’m gonna try my best and never give up.
I was watching an anime and a dialogue hit me…
“It doesn’t matter how many times I have lost. I just have to win once”
Check in Day 0
lets start for real. I’ll forget the past and won’t worry about the future. Just one day at a time.
Day 0- The Journey starts
I’m taking back control of my life now. Enough is enough. Relapse only brings guilt and regret. It drains energy and motivation. It destroys any drive to achieve something. It takes away even the desire to exercise or study. The pleasure it gives for a few minutes is not even worth it. It’s a bad deal. Furthermore, the pleasure it gives is taken from future pleasure with wife so if I do it now, I won’t enjoy in future. In every aspect, porn and masturbation is POISNOUS. Regarding withdrawals and irratibility, these are temporary. Im in this bad habit for 11 years, so I can take the discomfort for 4 months at least if that’s the price for sweet freedom. Also, these symptoms are nothing compared to withdrawals that real drug addicts face.
Whatever the pain or difficulty may come, it’s not a big deal. Anyone can manage with a strong mindset.
In short, PMO is worthless and harmful and the price for quitting PMO is very low and bearable if one thinks correctly.
Haha, there’s a reason the book is called easy peasy.
Oh wow, nice …( 20 characters)
What’s your target? Best of luck
My target is one day at a time till 120 days. Then I’ll stop counting.
Check in Day 0
It’s never too late to do the right thing. This is start of a new journey with new motivation but same destination. I’m more stubborn than my bad habit. That’s why I will never give up.
I’m Leaving this app
Reason: I overthink about nofap. Nofap has become sole purpose of my life and that’s why I’m failing at it. I should focus on building positive habits instead of giving myself negative commands. Brain can’t understand negative commands.
I thank every person who helped me in my journey. Thank you for being here for me. Thank you for motivating me when I was down and thank you for appreciating me on my streaks.
I especially thank @_TIGER @Samaranjay for your help in both my ups and downs .
Life is beautiful. There is a world of joys beyond instant gratification. There is true heart warming happiness that fills the voids of the heart that PMO cannot ever fill.
Take care… Goodbye my rewire companions. Ill delete this app after posting this message. I’m leaving this app but I won’t ever give up on myself. I won’t ever stop believing in my potential no matter how many times I fail.
Wish you success and good luck on your journey brother
Stay strong .
Oh man, I read your message on my dairy but I didn’t know you were leaving . You have been a great asset to this forum bro. All the best for all your endeavors, God Bless!
I’m back after my break from RC
I had lost hope that I will ever be able to quit PMO.
Now I’m starting my journey once again with a new hope.
I will try my best and focus on my part in hard work and not on results.
Let’s try out best.
Check in day 2
Hello guys, I’m glad to be back.
I have tried everything to quit PMO. Everything except sticking to my routine during difficult times. The qualities I lack are displine and perseverance. I’ll work on these weaknesses.
I will never stop trying. Afterall, I’m a stubborn person who refuses to admit defeat.
Aye! Welcome back dude.
Good to see you again.