I am going through very serious phase…
I don’t know from where to start…
but Currently masturbating daily became my habit… Since I lost my girlfriend or you can say she was more than that.(I don’t wanna go in detail) it’s like I lost everything in my life, every single thing which is my demotivation I started visualizing it.
Whenever I see any couples, I feel jealous that why they are together, what’s wrong with me? Why don’t I get any partner even when I reveal them everything whatever I have? I do love them whole heartedly…
Why I get hurt in the end? What’s my fault?
On regular basis. … I do this
After coming home from office like 11pm I eat dinner and then when I go to bed boom relapsed(not only once sometimes twice) !
I tried every single thing people told to do especially on nofap. But I wasn’t consistent after a 15 or 25days…
Last month around 45days I continuesly did workout.
But that time this Masturbation habit was like once in a week (when I use to workout). Somehow I loose consistency & I came back to zero.
I wanna stop this habit. Why??
- I started taking long sleeping hours(sleeping more than usual 9+hrs) waking up late.
- I feel lazy in morning (after I relapsed last night).
- I became emotionless after relapse(same day).
I can’t cry even if I want to…
- I started procrastinating daily tasks/habits
- I stopped looking at my diet(eating less than usual)
- Health became worse(started shrinking muscle mass, what I gained after workout)
- Getting irritated and angry very easily(next day) either in office or home.
- Gets more bored than usual. (Digital device usage became more than physical handbook)
- I stopped working hard for my career/ I feel scared to try new opportunities.
- I feel inferior when someone talk to me in louder voice.
This list will goes on like this and many more negative points are there which shows that I am becoming a looser every single day…
Currently I can’t stop myself doing this everyday.
I know it’s have many demerits… But by thinking about future, I don’t see anything good for me… Only worse I see for myself and I feel like I am incapable to fix my life alone.
I want to change my whole character (many behavior needs to change) … Like people changing their life by using nofap lifestyle.
I want to stop this… If anyone can help me… Then please do the needful.
l will be very grateful for this community…