I know it’s common that people relapse; but next time we should try harder than last time.
But somewhat my mind is hardwired, I tried to change a lot… Since Sept 17th 2020(DOJ), but coming back to zero someday…
In the very beginning I never able to pass a single day without relapse. It’s like daily habit for me.
(When and where I relapse I can disclose to only my Accoutability partner.)
First 5days when passed clean days, its very special days… Never thought I could do it this much ever.
But when I again fall into chaser effect(thanks for companions who shared what exactly it is; I was unaware of that) I keep on falling/relapsing again and again, somewhat loosing hope every single time to get better.
But y’day when I have completed 7days it’s not that special as much I thought I could achieve…
I am unsatisfied… I felt something is missing.
I feel sad… Everything seems worse, even if I talk to someone I feel hurtful. I became so sensitive. Don’t know how to handle my emotions…
It would be helpful if I can find one serious Accountability Partner, who keep an eye on me or I will keep him updated(if I will relapse or feel any uncontrollable circumstances);
I REALLY WANNA CHANGE
Before joining this forum once very log time ago I passed 21days, I was completely different person… Now it’s just opposite. I wanna become better person than what I could Become
NEED HELP GUYS, PLEASE HELP ME.
Is anyone wanna become my Accountability Partner?