MysticYogi's Journey to Freedom

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I am fighting this battle from last 1.5 years with streaks not more than 11 days. That’s my highest streak. I want to change myself very badly.

Once a bright student, a powerful speaker, a soulful musician, I lost it all gradually.
I have seen sleepiness nights due to my addiction, I have myself kicked my self reputation in school. I used to smile carefree, I want to find back that smile.
I have turned a fickle minded person. I wasn’t even ready to write this diary. Just because I was indecisive and kept on procastinating. Today it’s Day 4.
I know, I am not perfect. I am not wishing for it even. I just want to be normal. Out of this addiction. I don’t want to go back to the hell.

This diary holds a lot of hope for me.

"Om Namah Shivay"

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You are going to be successful.

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Day 4
Date- 10th Sept

:white_check_mark: Woke up at 8
:white_check_mark: Visualization of Life Goals (5-10 mins)
:white_check_mark: Walking 1000 steps in the backyard
:white_check_mark: Slot 1 Study for 3 hours
:white_check_mark: Slot for newspaper and question making
:white_check_mark: Bath
:white_check_mark: Lunch Break, Tv watch for 30 mins
:x:Test + Self Help Book
:x: Full body Workout
:white_check_mark: Bike Ride
:x: Slot 2 Study for 2 hours
:white_check_mark: Light dinner
:x: 3 times Kegel’s
:x: 7L water

I had to go outside with my family for doctor check up. So wasn’t able to complete all the activities.

Study hours for today:
5 hours.

Lessons from today:

  • People with the richest buildings just have rags in their heart
  • Always have trust, you can.
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Day 5
Date- 11th Sept

:white_check_mark: Woke up at 7
:white_check_mark: Visualization of Life Goals (5-10 mins)
:white_check_mark: Walking 1500 steps in the backyard (3000 steps)
:white_check_mark: Slot 1 Study for 3 hours
:white_check_mark: Slot for newspaper and question making
:white_check_mark: Bath
:white_check_mark: Lunch Break, Tv watch for 30 mins
:x: Test + Self Help Book (was feeling sleepy, so had a nap)
:white_check_mark: Full body Workout
:white_check_mark: Bike Ride
:white_check_mark: Slot 2 Study for 2 hours
:white_check_mark: Light dinner
:white_check_mark: 3 times Kegel’s
:white_check_mark: 7L water

Study hours for today:

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Lessons from today:

  • Anger destroys a person
  • It’s better to stay silent rather to speak foul words
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I lost. Bit by bit I pushed myself to this hell. I enat to come out.
Will start this journey again.
Want to fight back badly.

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