Today is September 12, 2020.
What you are about to read is what I will describe as a “can of worms” no one wants to open, but the LORD has decided to open mine. Since I am “dead” (Galatians 2:20) who am I to say “no”, or does a dead man have opinions?
Nebuchadnezzar, who was the king of the whole world during his life time wrote to the whole world about how he went mad and became an animal who was eating grass in the forest and how the LORD restored him to an even greater honour(Daniel 4), so who am I to keep to myself this “wonderful wonder”?
I don’t know how many people masturbate in the whole world but I know people do and the terrible thing about this secretive act is that it eats up and kills people inside while they look normal outside. Some even consider it as a normal thing or act, but the one who created everything and everyone says it’s not.
1Cor.6.19 - ‘‘What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?’’
I started masturbating at the age of 12 or 13. I can’t precisely remember when, and for the next seven to eight years of my life, I was like a fly trapped in a spider’s web. I kept struggling with the web. I have gone out for altar calls countless number of times, but still to no avail. My whole world was messed up. I thought of commiting suicide once, but what came to my mind was,
“what will I tell God when I stand before Him?”
so, because of this question I put the thought of commiting suicide aside and moved on with my struggling. I moved on to the university thinking that this habit would stop, but it only got worse. My grades were declining, I could not function well in class, and all hope was lost until covid-19 came and people had to stay home. All the students went home, but I didn’t.
I stayed back in school in my room, trying to get out of this web.
My mom asked me why I didn’t come home, but I could not tell her the actual reason. I only told her I was trapped with watching pornographic videos (partial truth). I could not tell her the whole truth because it was so disgraceful and she was like,
“Oh my God, why didn’t you speak out all this while”, and she started praying for me every night before I slept. I thought of confessing to someone and God about my sins so it would make me free but it didn’t. when we try to go to God and not through Jesus Christ we cannot see God, and also when we try to go through Christ, not taking the path of the cross we still cannot see God.
Jesus answered him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life; no one goes to the Father except by me.’’
To cut the long story short, I continued in masturbation until one day I was invited by one of my aunties for a fellowship sometime in June 2020, where the preacher (bro. Gbile Akanni) talked about the life we received from Adam being a life that brings people to a destructive end, but that Jesus came to change that through the cross by terminating that life of Adam in us which the Bible calls “the old man”.
Rom.6.6 - Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with him, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth we should not serve sin.
It is ‘‘the old man’’
which is responsible for all the sins being committed in the world today,
but by the means of the cross He(Christ) gained full entrance and access into our being (soul,spirit and body) in order to be able to live by Himself and for Himself (Galatians 2:20), not us living to please him and that the devil has lost all his power at Calvary and that he has been disgraced (Galatians 2:15), and also that I’m free from the ruling spirits of the universe (Colossians2:20 GNB).
By only just the realization of these truths, the wall of masturbation and sin collapsed immediately and I felt that relief in my being. I thought that before I could be delivered from my old life I would have to pray, fast and go through a lot of deliverance sessions, but fortunately I didn’t have to do any of these. All I had to do was believe in the work of the cross.
Mark.9.23 - Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.