Hi Guys, I want to share my story today here , till now I didn’t open up with any one about this.
When I was 7 yrs I was molested by my uncle, since then I had fear to talk to any adult men I’m scared. When I was in high school then also I was sexually abused by my seniors. Then I came to know about masturbation & porn . To cope up with my past I masturbate a lot that time . I was topper at that time ,but with this addiction my grades are getting bad& luckily I don’t have mobile at time , so no porn.
In 11& 12 th class I don’t have much time for this pmo, I concentrated on my studies & I got good marks & I got BDS but my aim is for MBBS .
In 2016 So I take drop for a year to prepare for Neet & that to prepare from home . That is bad decision of my life.
Jio just entered with free 4G internet daily 4gb/ day for 1 year
I binge watched porn & masturbated daily . Resulted in poor score & again I took another drop for a year & repeated same routine pmo.
By this time I’m completely addicted to pmo, my goals didn’t matter , my family& friends didn’t matter.
I only want pmo & this continued till 2019november & at I became suicidal & no interest in my life
At this time I came to know about no nut November ,at first I thought it is some sort of BS then I gave it a try I Lasted 15 days on first try & then I relapsed.then stuck Chaser effect & I came back to Pmo for 6 months , In June 2020 I came to know about no fap by salil jamdaar & fituber from then I was small streaks but I can’t move past 7 days & relapse .
In Nov 2020 I had taken no nut November seriously this time my streak 33 days. Even though it’s a small streak I feel great at that time my energy levels & mental clarity are at peak & Then I came to know about rewire companion , there are many like me here. Thanks rewire companion for helping me to better person.
I Forgot to add this above I had puberphonia ( Male with Female voice ) in my teenage many mocked my voice u sound like a girl , so this also affected me , resulted in pmo
Sorry for my bad English.