I have relapsed. It happened at 11:00 pm yesterday 23 of june. It was 60 days without P, and now I feel I have made a huge step back on my recovery.
The truth is that the relapse happened yesterday, but it started to be more imminent the former days. I have to confess my mistakes, I could have done it better.
So 21 of june I had an unvoluntary relapse. My hand appeared grabbing my friendo after a wet dream. I decided to reset my counter. That type of behaviour is not acceptable and as I did 40 days ago (when it first happened to me) I took it as an MO relapse. I wasn’t feeling like all my progress went away. Yes, the semen retention benefits disappeared, but my no P progress was still.
But when it happened to me 40 days ago, it was different. It was different because I was taking seriously my reboot and doing what I needed to. This time I don’t. I stopped studying reboot articles, I started playing more and more videogames, I started fantasizing more and more, I started being more and more lazy. I thought I could fight the urges the next time they knocked at my door. I thought I could fight them only with my willpower, I didn’t take as seriously as it needs to be.
So to sum up, what led me to a relapse:
-Not taking it seriously
-No studying reboot articles
-Being wake up late
-Lazynes, not being busy
-Stopped writing my journal
This is what stopped my reboot, and what I have to work on. But not all is that bad. I learned more with thus relapse, now I feel even more determined to do what I have to.