I’ve made a few realisations in past days that I want to share with you guys. So about my streak, it’s 0 days currently and I’m in a bad chaser effect from few weeks now. My last good streak was 16 days and after that it’s not been even 3 days
But that’s not what I’m going to talk about today.
These are my realisations:
- So recently many girls seems to be attracted towards me, I don’t know why because I’m not tall but I have a good face cut and a charming personality too, quite strangely.
So yesterday I had a test in my tution and I was just casually sitting there and a girl was staring at me for 15mins. She was sitting ahead of me and she was supposed to look in the front and instead she kept staring at me. Whenever I put my head up, I saw her face and that made me uncomfortable. I know that there is something that she wants to tell me but she don’t. If she likes me then she should atleast talk to me, there’s no benefit in just creeping me out.
And then I realised that I’ve been doing the same thing to my crush
I always used to stalk her, stare at her, follow her, roam around her house and what not did I did.
I realised how uncomfortable I made her feel, if I like her then I should have atleast talked to her, ofcourse she would have rejected me but so would I do to the girl who is stalking me but conversation in necessary! I hope you understand what I’m trying to say.
- Realisation number two is, I DON’T HAVE A SPECIFIC GOAL!
I do have temporary goals like, score +90% in my board exams, secure admission in a good college, exercise to develop good physique, work on my communication and social skills.
But I don’t have a specific goal that I could totally dedicate myself to achieve it.
I realised it today morning when I woke up at 5am. So what happened is, I decided that I will wake up at 5am from now and I actually did wake up without the help of an alarm. Nobody wakes up this early in my entire building, not even a dead soul. So I thought my exercise plan that I’ve decided to do is of 30 mins, so what I will do for rest of the time then I thought I would shave, trim my nails, take a cold shower, meditate. All this will take max 2 hours but then what? What will I do after 7am because my family wakes up after 8 am, I have setup different time slots for study which are adequate and there’s nothing else I can to do. This thought kept me on bed for the next two hours just thinking that I don’t have a specific goal in life.