My Confessions and Experiences

Confession
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I relapsed :cry:… It was due to Some Scene in webseries… :expressionless::expressionless::expressionless::pensive::pensive:

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I’m really sorry to hear this, bro
But it’s not the end of the world. Learn and get stronger!
Write me if you need someone to talk to

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Day 0
28 September 2020

I relapsed, the simple reason was A trick Played by my mind, Since I was in challenge to Control My Mobile addiction so I distanced myself from mobile,
But I used PC to watch p@rn after inspiring was webseries . This was the fucking reason of relapse.

From last 5 days i Won over them quite easily because I used My mobile not frequently

Just an edging should not be an excuse…

I did 14 days and 28 days streaks successfully after joining this forum and app…
I have to look forward now, in my life and not to look back to the past Anymore…

I want to show New Streaks to All of you…

Now it’s time to Break My Highest Streak of 35 days… :muscle:

I Respect Women and Men… Don’t Objectify Anyone
I Follow my Dharma (Duty as a Student)
I Win Out Vulnerable Phases :muscle:
I Am Rewiring Myself

Om! :om:

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Day 1
2020-09-29T18:38:00Z

I am Alone Now. And I am now going to Study for Sometime… Whenever I feel Something Wrong… I will come back and update you guys

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Day 1

2020-09-30T06:10:00Z

I have alone since 1100… And i Did beat my Urges to fap… By mindfulness and breathing exercise :muscle::smile::sunglasses:

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Day 2

2020-09-30T06:50:00Z → 2020-09-30T08:09:00Z

This was the time Duration Of wasting my time on Mobile, I switched various time fighting with my urges, I repeatedly Switch sometimes to Porn and then Again control myself to watch something to avoid it …
I admit that despite this Hide and Seek , I watched that stuff, Because of isolation . Yesterday someone was talking in forum about watching porn without Masturbation , That person was telling that watching porn without Masturbation was good way to control one self …So just for the sake of Experimenting , My mind played a game…
Now I reject that theory because watching porn without Masturbation is nothing but a paradox, Although I didn’t relapse But I confronted Sexual tensions Inside me afterwards stopping Porn…I exercised and took a cold shower :shower: Then things became normal…

I Respect Women and Men… Don’t Objectify Anyone
I Follow my Dharma (Duty as a Student)
I Win Out Vulnerable Phases :muscle:
I Am Rewiring Myself

Om! :om:

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Day 3
2020-10-01T09:00:00Z
My Main point was

Porn is nothing but a tool of Artificial Seduction it leads us to nowhere and Excessive of porn indulgence can slowly reduces our Original Sexual power…(it is obvious) I am pointing not only because I am single But because many Guys who are in relationship are watching porn… Being Single should not be the excuse of watching porn.
Second Naturally Our Organs are originally meant for Real Sexual Activity (if u analyse human Body reaction after seduction be it Male or female) not for masturbation
What we are watching today the Huge amount of Porn… Our ancestors didn’t, They watch 1 or 2 real persons but what we are seeing is Unprecedented,… Can Someone Think About the impact of Frequent seduction and frequent orgasm on our brain​:thinking:… Where we are going mentally… What level of dopamine imbalance our brain and body are suffering from… :roll_eyes::slightly_frowning_face:…

Seriously All my brothers and Sisters don’t Indulge in Artificial Seduction. It certainly Screw our mind… Value Each other… Don’t fall prey to Fucking Porn Shortcuts… Don’t Make Addict your brain to Useless porn,Slowly it Diminishes your productivity.

I am telling Because I suffered a lot from past 3 years… :pensive:

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How to be Serious In life?
I am not serious about my career, My goals, I take most important things very lightly, Is it due to interest loss due to addiction?
Plz Help me @JumpingBuddha @rhybha @Tagore , @strongwillpower @neetwarrior @debellator Please help me…

I take everything very casually :pensive:

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Can we all know you daily routine and what you actually do in your life?

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I am student Preparing for Competitive Exams… Since 4 years I have been trying (not as per my potential) and Failed.
I know I will do it But I failed everytime… I cleared written part of Defence exams in first attempt but Failed in further steps…
And I failed in various Government Exams as well :pensive:

I know I will crack it but when This time will come I am not sure…

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Watch “The Social Dilemma”
Then read the book “Deep Work” by Cal Newport
The read the books by Mel Robbins- “5 sec rule” and “Take Controo of Your Life”
Then read the book “Bullet Journal” by Ryder Carrol

95% of your life issues will go away if you read and ‘implement’ things in them.

I cant emphasize the importance of ‘implement’ here.
:crossed_fingers::crossed_fingers::crossed_fingers:

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@Dean_Ambrose. Take a look… My confession page… Take that example

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Hi dear @SincereDev,

I think you need to be more sincere than serious… Yes you heard it right.

I don’t know you personally and not aware of your real life situations. But I believe you will overcome your problem.
Answers are inside yourself not outside. Try to search them there :slight_smile:

Just to make sure, plz ask yourself this question-

  1. Are you overestimating your current capabilities? (Maybe because you passed written first time, which doesn’t necessarily guarantee your success next time)
  2. Are you afraid of getting out of comfort zone? Maybe you come out but you go back to easy zone again and again.
  3. Are you overconfident? Guage your capabilities on current situation not on your past (Are you performing good in mocks?) Hope is good but false hope based on mere dreams is really stupid. Hope you got my point.
  4. Ask yourself- are you preparing well for the exam/goal. Ask it everyday or maybe every week. If yes then Great if Not then cover up and fall back in line. In simple words- keep doing self-evaluation.
  5. Are you enjoying the process- your studies, your books, your tests? If yes you are in tight path. If No, you know what to do…

I strongly believe that you should set a strict routine for next an year or half based on your target. Break it into smaller goals into monthly, weekly and daily goals and follow the routine religiously. Ofcourse keep some breaks and buffer :slight_smile:

Last but not the least, Keep challenging yourself and keep improving yourself. Just remember this one thing- This is a competition, if you stop for a moment you are allowing others to move ahead. This is a race! Only speedy and steady win this race. Be cool in head, be smart and do hard work.

Best Wishes
JumpinBuddha

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Day 7 No PMO
2020-10-05T10:37:00Z

I am alone now… And I know what I am doing… From last 3 days I have been feeling low… Is it sign of withdrawal symptom?
I am fighting with 2 addictions right now
-Unproductive Mobile Addiction
-P@rn addiction

I did not invested my alone time in these habits from last 3 days…
Thus I am feeling very bored…
Plus The major cause of my Frustration was my bad performance in important examination :pensive:

From last year I admit that I watched more porn vids than practicing on my weak subject… That’s why That topic let me down everytime, in every examination

I wasted my precious 3 months in fapping. All my important lockdown period gone in fapping.

I admit that Since My birth that lockdown period was Peak of my porn and Masturbation habit…
Plz Someone suggested this app and Forum to me before April 2020… I would be in better shape as compare to my present :sob::pensive::pensive::pensive::pensive:

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@JumpingBuddha… Bhai. You are giving me support continuously… Now I have to change myself, I have to built new habits replacing ingrained old bad habits

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Thats the only way.

Regularity, integrity and honesty are your weapons. Keep moving forward :+1::+1:

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Day 9

2020-10-07T12:30:00Z

This is the time when High tides of Urges To watch P@rn hit me… But Today I smoothly watched them(urges not p@rn :wink:obviously) … I pressed urge button on my app and Just observe my breathing pattern… After sometime I switched to YouTube and listen to Om Mantra Meditation and meditated for 15 minute

Everything was fine then… :blush:
Much soothing Experience :heart:

I Respect Women and Men… Don’t Objectify Anyone
I Follow my Dharma (Duty as a Student)
I Win Out Vulnerable Phases :muscle:
I Am Rewiring Myself
:person_in_lotus_position:t4:‍♂

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Day 9
2020-10-07T21:30:00Z → 2020-10-07T21:40:00Z

This was the time duration I peeked at Erotic stuff… I switched now to this app… Lone time was not the excuse… I don’t have any justification for this… I already conquered it so many times, Mind was playing games to me that you exhausted by now by doing all day work… Ohh Fuck :-1: these tricks can’t work now…
P*** Cannot be my Reward For work… But It certainly demotivates me to Do productive in life…
P*** induces Lust, P*** induces Laxity, It causes me Inexplicable stress, Mental Trauma in my life…
From My Experience I am confessing that I am somewhat Allergic to P***…
So :fu: to p@rn
I’m fully aware of my actions

Peace
Good Night to all of you :night_with_stars::slightly_smiling_face:

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From Now On I am more accountable to all of you by updating my time duration and details for these peeking, Quick look etc or any Stuff

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Day 12
2020-10-09T18:30:00Z

Just Want to Earn Streaks to gain confidence.
I am now alone and Study Something, Yesterday was a bad day for me because I surf mobile unnecessarily, And I am upset with myself that’s why I didn’t confess :smirk:

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