My Confession about the worst sin of my life I have done in an early age

So at a very young age of 11 I was exposed to incest porn,but at that point of time I didn’t realised that what I was watching is going to become the worst sin of my life.After seeing the first video which was about Son fucks mom,it just left a very strong impression in my mind.My mind started to fantasize this in reality.This thought would always strike and mind and I would cry each time thinking how bad I am,I am thinking such things about my mom.I started to develop anxiety.Then when I was 14 ,as my addiction conintued to grow and till this time I had started masturbation,I am extremely ashamed to say that I fantasized about my mom and sister while fapping.I cried so much that day.And this is the first time I am sharing this on a public platform.This past evil memory always haunts me and makes me cry each time.
I just want to kill myself now cause there is no better punishment for me than killing myself :sob::sob::sob:
Hope the almighty God forgives me for committing such a bad sin unknowingly.
Thanks for reading my story :pray::pray::pray::heartpulse::heartpulse::heartpulse::om::om::om:

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You were too young, and a lot of hormones were involved, probably you don’t even know what you were doing. You regret it now, good enough. Probably you must be thinking to stop PMO altogether atleast? Which says that you learned from it. Thats good enough. Everyone has skeletons in their closet. Forgive yourself and look forward. Porn does make us do the worst possible things. So please work on quitting it completely. And like I said, forgive yourself and work on being best possible version of yourself.

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“God will forgive you, if you can forgive yourself”

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Bro, the very fact that you’re feeling guilty and the tears of it have already washed away all of the sinful thoughts you’ve had. Just don’t think about such things anymore and everything will be ok. Remember it never happened in reality, and what you thought weren’t really your thoughts but fantasies that you had received from watching porn at a young age.

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Dang that’s really sad. My eyes really got wet after reading this. Porn is destroying us completely.
Don’t worry bro , god will forgive you.
We will win this fight!

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Bro you realised your mistake in itself the biggest proof that you have improved!!!
And now you must work on yourself and improve this much that you can make your maa and didi feel proud!!! :muscle::fire::pray:
God will definitely forgive you then, if he sees you working for it!!! Stop regretting but never forget the lesson you got!!
Namami krishnam​:pray::pray:

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God will forgive you! Just pray to him.
And i just can’t stop myself telling you that the Video you saw , they were most probably actors and not in any kind of blood relations so delete that idea! Just stop it ! And you are going to start a new life from today onwards ! So best of luck for that bro! Keep growing stronger everyday :muscle:.
And also pray to God .
You can start reading scriptures also :slightly_smiling_face:

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Your story breaks my heart. God will absolutely forgive you! You are here now, have repented, and are working to become a better man.

Forgiving ourselves can be really hard. If you’d like to hear a message about forgiving yourself and leaving guilt behind, this is a really good sermon to check out: https://youtu.be/PY2FmXz006A . Psalm 51, the psalm David wrote after committing adultery and murder, is also a really good place to start if you are looking for a Scripture to meditate on.

Praying for you in your journey.

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Thanks a lot everyone for your support,may the Almighty god bless you all :pray::pray::pray::heart::heart::heart::om::om::om:

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