My (brutally honest) journey so far, [Einar 35 M]

Ohh really? Are you a doctor?

No doubt I am not an doctor but it’s my personal experience … I am also weed lover …and I saw many people who smoke weed and enjoy their life …

I know only one thing that masturbation is one and only dangerous addiction who destroy physically and mentally …and it is one of the hardest addiction for getting rid of it … it needs self control, presence of mind during urge, extrem high level will power …

Sorry for my bad english

:sweat_smile:i also miss him too

I really hope this comment was meant sarcastically.

If that is the case, sorry that I’m pissed and skip the part below.

Smoking weed daily is healthy?? That’s st… from so many points of view…To name some: Smoking weed daily is a so-called addiction. If you disagree, try to go for a month completely without it, without replacing it by smoking or doing anything similar.

If you know how the structure in the lungs look like, you wouldn’t put any kind of smoke deliberately down your lungs and call it healthy. Large amounts of particle are just not meant to be there. (sure there is the mucus which removes it again but it is not built for huge amounts)

People who smoke weed daily seem to be enjoying their life? Let me guess they also seem to be pretty relaxed. Did you know that people who drink alcohol talk to strangers more easily? Surprising. Let’s start to drink daily and you will find it very easy to talk to girls. -> problem with finding a girlfriend solved

Sure, weed is used for certain medical applications (I think as pain killer?), but that doesn’t make it healthy.

Just because you feel good while doing it doesn’t mean that it is good for you. At some point in life you will look back and hate yourself for having this addiction. Wasn’t it the same with porn? You were young, you watched the first one and you kind of enjoyed doing it? You can’t deny that. If you hated it from the first time on, you wouldn’t have done it a second time

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I agree with you brother …may be I smoke weed just because forgetting all my problems and running away from my responsibilities …I have been smoking week last 2 years … I gives me immense pleasure …I will try to quit as soon as possible …

One more question Brother what about wiz khalifa and snoop dogg, Tupac etc … they also smoke weed extremely but they look cool and good in behaviour …by the way I will not be able to beat like wiz khalifa and all

By the way rolling papers 2 released ft Wiz Khalifa … enjoy the music

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I have two thoughts about that.
So many stars die from drug overdose, without anyone knowing that they had terrible mental issues. What you see from snoop and friends are music videos, interviews and so on. You don’t know how good their life is. I can only guess that there is so much pain which needs to be numbed. I mean, they are people like you and me

How successful would a rapper be, who raps about eating chocolate and petting his dog? They need to sing about weed, drugs, chicks. Otherwise they don’t get famous.

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Good to read you comments … no doubt you are very intellectual …I promise to you brother I will leave this habit slowly - 2 .

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Ok so here is my 2 cents on weed. I’m a recovering addict, although to be honest I didn’t become extreme in my hard-core drugs. My main problem is alcohol, but I used to smoke a lot of weed, and this is my experience with weed.
1 smoking is really bad for your health, whether it’s weed or tobacco, it’s a killer man… it’s not only about the long term health problems, to me what was worse was the quality of life, I didn’t enjoy exercise because it hurt my chest, my teeth and mouth always seemed dirty. People judge you. Etc…
2 on the flip side, weed didn’t mess up my life like drink did. And I don’t think it itself is extremely addictive.
3 rappers and movie stars need their life to look good and exciting, it’s part of the image they sell, but I wouldn’t base any life decisions on them, because it’s probably not true, and if it is true, they are 1 in a billion, and that’s not good odds.
4 even though weed never seriously destroyed me like alcohol did, I just didn’t progress in life like my non stoner friends did, I was stunted and standing still in life.
5 The “weed is good for you” narrative needs to be understood within its boundaries. I believe there are health benefits to cannabis, but not when smoked, and the thc is not beneficial, so basically you can get all the health benefits from cannabis without getting high, and if you smoke weed, the smoking is damaging you far more than the benefits of cannabis.
6 personally, my life is faaaaar better now that I have stopped weed.

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To add to that, weed can cause paranoia and psychosis.

@anon67854825 I forgot to included that.

Day 11

Wow, I saw that I had some new posts.
I click and see 12 replies, I’m thinking “No this can’t be right, ahh, I see, someone has chosen 12 replies as his/her nickname, that must be it. Weird nickname”
And then I see that I actually have 12 replies :joy:

I have a relative in Canada who runs a dispensary for medical marijuana, and he tends to rant about all the wonderful things it does. It’s like the philosophers stone and fountain of youth wrapt into one fantastic healthy and life giving joint.
And he really believes it. And he might be right, I don’t know, I don’t have enough medical knowledge to make a correct assumption.
I also have a friend who claims that ■■■■ isn’t addictive, that it’s even good for you to watch ■■■■. He also truly belives it, and you know what, he might be right. I dont know.

All I know is that for me, weed has had a negative impact on my life, and I was quite addicted to it… many years of my life went by in a foggy haze that I can’t remember. There might be a lot of positive aspects with weed if you smoke moderately, I don’t know, I could never smoke moderately. I know that for me it was an addiction.
The same with ■■■■. There might be benefits, but I haven’t seen any. It’s just been a terrible addiction, that I’m sick of having.

With love and respect
Over and out for now

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Well then dude you can’t tell people what weed may or may not do cause no matter how much research you do, the truth is in the medical books

Day 0

I did go 11 days, not one of my better streaks but not at all bad though. So I’m happy with it.
Well not happy, but hey it’s so much better than the last one and a half month. :blush:
So what happened?
Well there’s a saying, the opportunity creates the thief. It goes quite well with this situation.
My girlfriend’s daughters computer stats messing about and I have to reinstall windows on it. At the same time my girlfriend’s oldest daughter who has autism decides that she want to be with me instead of her helper, and if she can’t be with me she tries to smash my computer.
So I have to go upstairs to fix the computer.
My girlfriend is downstairs feeding our baby daughter and I’m alone upstairs.
Now you might think, hey he’s got a lot of stuff to do, theres no time to fap, beside he has pornblockers on his computer.
Well… I have to download the new windows version which takes forever. And while doing that on my computer I have my girlfriend’s daughters computer, which will soon be wiped of all information and doesn’t have any blockers…
I can’t go downstairs becourse if would make it harder for the autistic daughter and her helper.
So I’m stuck, alone, with a computer, without pornblockers. And all I can do is wait… And wait… And wait…
So yeah… didn’t go so well.
I’m well aware that I could have done something. Like exercising, take a cold shower, meditate and so on. And that making excuses doesn’t really help.
BUT, since I did fail, I’m glad that the odds were at least agaist me. :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

@einar damn… sorry dude… Oh well, I’m sure you’ll bounce back. Besides the obvious reasons, like alone time with unblocked computers, was there anything else going down In your life?

Day 2

The last few months have been filled with relapses I haven’t been able to bounce back to when I had longer streaks.
So let’s have some honesty in here. I’ve noticed that writing about things that I do helps me to process it. So lets start with what’s different now.
Well, first of all, I had this really strong resolve before and I don’t know where it went or how to get it back… I’ll try to, no not try, I WILL look at what made me stay strong in the past and use that in the present. I think that’s a good start.
The second thing that’s changed is, my girlfriend has started studying. That means I’m home alone with our six months old daughter, who usually sleeps at that time. And I’m not very good at alone time.

One more thing I’ll do is to write down the things I’m ashamed of doing. That way I can look at it objectively and take responsibility for it.
There’s been two things that I’ve done lately that I’m ashamed of, besides gawking at the backsides and breasts of girls that’s way to young.

Those are (I’ll save the worst for last) the following: Me and my girlfriend hadn’t had sex for quite some time. The reason for that is a mix between me spending to much time fapping to porn so I don’t have any interest in sex anymore and our baby taking up a lot of our time.
So we decided a date and time when we were to put the baby to sleep a bit earlier so we could have some intimate time for our self. Sadly I couldn’t keep away from porn that day, so when the evening came I had no interest in sex at all. I couldn’t even perform.

The second thing was when my girlfriend had left for school. Our baby was lying in her crib sleeping so I got my vr gogels and started watching porn. When I heard her waking up I just kept watching. I figured that as long as she doesn’t cry it’s okey.
After a while I hear her getting anxious, but I keep ignoring her until I hear she starting to get sad.
Then I just pic her up, put her on the floor, give her some toys and go back to watching. It’s not until she really start crying I stop.
After that she kept crying until my girlfriend came back an hour later. And I felt like the worst father ever.

So those are two things that has happened lately that I’m really ashamed of. I belive that writing about it will help me find the strength and will to stop this addiction.

Love and respect to you all.

Maybe you could align a Streak with intimacy with your girlfriend? Like go so far into a streak and then try to be intimate with your girlfriend? I know you already thought of that but I hope it works out for you.

I’m sad to read about what happened with your baby. We all have a sad story to tell about how PMO took us too far. I’m sure you won’t let it happen again.

We all have different reasons for starting new streaks. Your honesty is much appreciated.

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@copper_bronze that’s not a bad idea, to align a streak with intimacy, hadn’t thought about that :grin: Tnx for your support.

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Day 4

Had an eye opener yesterday, my girlfriend’s 14 year old daughter told us about something that happend to her the other day.
She was taking the bus and two drunk men in my age started looking at her, and one of them said a comment like “hey that’s something for you ay?” To his friend when she walked pass.
She told them off (you go girl) and they got a bit embarrassed about the comment.
But here the kicker, when she told me, I was thinking “you f-cking perverts, she’s only fourteen”.
And then it hit me. The girls I look at is about her age to (I guess, I don’t stop them to ask). So that makes me the pervert that just disgusted me… quite the eye opener for me.

Over and out

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A great read and very honest, well played especially reaching day 11.
I forgot I stopped masturbating and went to, then realised what I was about to do. Strange moment where I didn’t even think twice about doing it. Proves that habits are unconsciously there all the time.

I really want to stop ogling at women, I know they’re pretty when I walk past, I need to stop looking back afterwards.

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