Hi , from today I’m gonna write the details of my everyday life without PMO.
I started my masturbation about 4-5 years ago and I masturbated every single day , I purposely used to take some spare time out of my schedule and masturbate , I didn’t face any trouble masturbating everyday and felt good as now I am 17 years old , it’s getting harder to control myself , and as I was masturbating daily , there are some things which hurt really bad , I feel shy in front of others , my voice goes all squeaky and soft I can’t talk to others with my full voice , I get anxious and I don’t know just somewhere all this is eating me up on the inside .
This was all that I am currently facing.
You have advanced already when you have accepted your mistakes.
You will one day cross 1000 days .
Mark my words,
Thank me later.
Stay blessed my divine soul…
Date :- 13-02-2021
I’m uncontrollable right now , it feels like my own mind is not mine . I feel like hell , I constantly think about masturbation and porn and fantasies , but as I’m involved in 90 day no fap challenge , I’m trying my best to control myself. If it wasn’t was for this challenge I would be masturbating daily , but atleast now I have a motive -
A motive to be best.
A motive to be focused.
A motive to be free from fapping.
A motive to be confident.
A motive to be attractive.
And at last.
A motive to be independent from slavery of fapping.
All this is in my mind , but stills somewhere inside I feel like I will lose and fap again. But I trust myself , that my destiny is not just being a fapper , but my destiny is to be excellent…
Thanks guys for reading.
Date :- 15-02-2021
So I was involved in a noFap challenge of 90 days and I couldn’t even control myself for 3 days. It was this game called summertime saga which I felt really interested to play. Well it was the biggest mistake!! Lost the challenge. Lost the courage. And now - well everyone feels this - " now I’ve relapsed but now I won’t " , and I get motivated for a while and then after I’ve overcome the last urge and get a new urge , I relapse again. Great!!!
Well let’s see , there’s a strange feeling inside me where I feel that I will quit PMO and will do it definitely.
Thanks For reading.
Date :- 17 - 02 - 2021
It’s been 2 days and I have relapsed several times in these days. I’m stuck in chaser effect feels like hell. I’ve started feeling that masturbation is good as I felt earlier but I know somewhere inside it’s really really bad. But now I’ve decided to show future me that my past was being a fapper but my future right from this millisecond will not be being a fapper. Alright , thanks for reading.
Uh oh !! Recently I promised myself not to fap just after fapping and now again I’m getting an urge damn it !
Hahahahha but I’ll control now my future self will be shocked after seeing me right now controlling everything like it’s nothing. I’m free. Or probably I will be soon enough .
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