Well I don’t coming here as often used to come, glad I didn’t deleted my account or erase any of my texts because I like go through them once in while to see where I’m at.
I can gladly say I’m 30 days free PMO, man I didn’t watch porn for 30 days straight and no touch as well, this is unbelievable because I only managed to get to 30 days edging a lot but this 30s are clean .
I want to touch those 90 days to see how it feels, I can say after 30 days girls looking again in a good suspicious way, I know is from my build up sexual energy of 30s free PMOeven at my age of 33 still works.
I’m also in my 60 days no smoking wich is a huge accomplishment for me, because I only had managed to stay only 2 weeks no smoking since I started to smoke. I can’t recall how many times I said this is my last cigarette, thousands of times and finally I’m here, 60 days. Friends getting a bit jealous and they saying you will get back to smoke as some people got back after 8 years of no smoking. Horseshit I made up my mind already I’m done with them.
One night at the pub I approached a girl and we swapped numbers, I didn’t know she’s is only 19, well she’s a black girl so the body doesn’t match age, I lied I’m 28. We are taking on WhatsApp, I met her mum too, and so far I only kissed this girl and I’m thinking she’s virgin as she said she never had a boyfriend. That’s Incredible because I potentially have a chance to sleep with a virgin girl and make her a woman. Is amazing how far 30 days of no PMO took me, because I’m feeling a bit confident these days too.
Beside this 19yo girl I’ve met a 32 yo girl from Jamaica on a dating site and we went for a date and couldn’t let go of each other, we end up in a hotel room staying all night. I had sex with her night and in the morning. I felt so man, and we still in touch.
Besides these 2 black girls I’ve met a 38 yo woman born in uk with Pakistan roots, I had sex with her twice as well and after I decided to break up with her because there was no actual mutual sexually attraction. We both agreed.
So this year so far I’ve had sex with 2 girls and potentially in the future with a virgin girl. Good things comes to people who waits. Only if I could take this urge pain to watch porn and wank when I was young I could be somewhere else now. Maybe married with kids, maybe a successful entrepreneur, now I know no matter how painful it is I have to resist the urge because something good waiting for me on the other side of urge.
That’s it for now, I’ll come back later.