November 18, 2022, 1:15 am
After creating a support group I left it because I went in a downward spiral into binge watching.
I don’t know why. It felt like I was forced. I couldn’t resist.
I thought that may be after making this group, after being responsible and having an accountability would provide me necessary motivation to help me come out of my addiction. But I was wrong.
The problem was deeper…than I thought. It is deeper. But where the root problem lies I have not been able to pinpoint. My triggers are so fine that I am having trouble detecting them.
2 days before, for the first time I told my friend that I have a porn addiction. He was understanding and supportive. Still it didn’t make me stop doing it.
Now I am in pursuit of finding the problem first. Writing this diary will give me perspective and an insight within myself. May it help others who read it.
But I am writing for none other than myself. Recovery begins with self…