Let the best version of you shine my diary

Feeling really thankfull the whole day, went on the whole day no single bad or anger moment I have the funniest classmates :joy:

F! Porn focus your attention to creative things

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Falling in love is the greatest thing but also the most tragic if you don’t know what you are getting your self into I have many regreats and I don’t even know if I will ever truly get over this everything in my life is going fine but I barely can get over this, wish I never fell in love in the first place

Out of curiosity, What’s your current streak mate?

Naaaa bro, never regret to have loved! You might have to let go but the only thing you should ever regret is loosing time because of pmo… However, in regards to your streak even that shouldn’t be that much of an issue :v:

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My current streak is 346

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Hey thanks for that great insite its just the way I was before nofap and how careless I was, it’s like now my senses are back and I can finnally deal with what I would ignore due to pmo, it’s hurts now when I realise that I lost a good companion due to this and me being lazy back then, but I am learning and I must move on I have been given a chance and I took it couldn’t be more thankful truly.

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I was, it’s like now my senses are back and I
can finnally deal with what I would ignore

… On point

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This is hard for me damn it, lately I have been consuming unhealthy food alot of sugar to my standards if you will, I notice I am having very strong erection even without thinking about anything and they last for hours, today was the worst I think, i kept looking at this one lady today usually I take my eyes from such things but kinda succeeded, last night I was watching this one netflix show and there was a kissing I felt a rush that I have been avoiding for a very long time after that scene I felt guilty that I did not press foward like I always do funny thing is I pressed foward to a worse scene than that I feel pretty guilty soo I had to let my companions on this journey know I don’t want to hide anything.

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How is everybody doing, for lately I have been dealing with urges triggered from videos on insta or pics, although I have overcome come surfing the web for this things or pmo’ing I still feel extremely guilty for being on and looking at these type of videos, I haven’t once marstubated or searched for porn but I have come close to it just by scrolling through insta, it makes me feel as if I am cheating I set a big standard for myself when I was trying to quit, sometimes I feel like a should go back to day zero honestly fuck.

Update i just overcame a saturday urge and i am very happy, my whole body was asking for it instead i fell a sleep, and i had one of the most wildest dream ever thought i relapsed then woke up and i am soo glad i was able to beat the weekend urge more great things to come.

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Its 16:28 sunday 1 september 2019, and just a minute ago i relapsed again last night i gave in twice i woke and gave in again.

This are my reminders
I want to be a better man
I want to be healthy mentally
I want to help my fellow companions along
As well seek help and advice
I want to achieve real hard worked goals instead of instant gratification.
PMO Is not WORTH IT!!
I feel immense guilt after giving up to lust
I want to be the one in CONTROL OF MY EMOTIONS AND SENSES AGAIN.

Its me and my life or pmo now.
This

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Brother, don’t forget that you can do this. You’ve done it before. You’ve gone farther than 99% of this community. Recall your previous strategy and refine it. Rise up again greater than before.

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I minute ago i just relapsed again, i have become impulsive and i have very little control over my lust for pmo, am honestly sorry for anyone who looked up to me, but thanks for reminding me this i know how to self anaylize myself i need to sit down and be honest with myself again, thank you brother.

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Relapsed again just putting it out there as much as i am ashamed to admit

Don’t dwell in the shame, bro.

Find a way to come to terms with your past and remove the shame. Shame actually increases the addictive tendencies and encourages binging. Be compassionate towards yourself, and look forward towards your future instead of back at the dark past you’re leaving behind.

You’re not a failure, not by a long shot. You made it to a year. A whole YEAR. Some of us - myself included - have been fighting for over a decade just to pass 3 months. You did over 4 times that.

All you’ve discovered was that your plan and strategy wasn’t airtight. Go back to it. Find your strong, powerful reasons why you want to keep going. Refine your plan; find out where it failed and adjust it. Let go of the past and the shame; it is love and compassion for ourselves that brings the healing. Remember that as long as you’re on a journey to becoming your best self, you are a hero.

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So right @Forerunner :pray:
Thanks for that :pray: I needed this too :pray:

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@Aoshigreen We all need a reminder every now and again bro. This is the world’s most powerful addiction, and all around us we see people fighting daily to remove it from their lives. That’s commendable; that’s noble.

It’s too easy to get caught up in the shame of multiple failed attempts at self-control, but I like to think it’s not you who failed, it’s your plan! There’s a story @Sahas shared in his journal about a man who retrieved the sword in the stone after the 1000th attempt. It wasn’t simply that final attempt that did it, it’s all the attempts before which finally made the stone give way. All of this effort is going somewhere. We just have to keep at it with the correct attitude, and keep learning from our mistakes and applying that knowledge to each attempt.

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Rightly said brother… constant effort & hard work… pays in the end.

What you want … You get in the End. Universal Law
Sow seeds & in Time & constant effort… One day you start reaping the Rewards.

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@Sahas Absolutely right!

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