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I guess I should check in day 1 and day 2 - hopefully youā€™ll forgive me, brothers, for not doing it yesterday, as I was, wellā€¦ Busy with things in the daily live :slight_smile:

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Checking in after day 2.

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Checking in after day 3. I had a productive day today, I feel like Iā€™m getting back on track. Howā€™s it going for everyone else?

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Yup, again - day 3 and 4 checked in! Iā€™m not checking in daily, as I do not feel the need - and I guess thatā€™s the whole point, isnā€™t it? Even if I admit that this forum is good, it is still a sort of crutch that helps us all walk. And at some point we should be able to walk on our own!

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Yes, I agree. I feel like I need a crutch though. It helps me feel more confident. Except after today Iā€™m already feeling less confident. Multiple times I nearly relapsed. By that, I mean I edged for a bit and then realized that wasnt what I wanted to do and I moved on. But itā€™s scary how Iā€™m thinking more with my pee-pee than with my brain sometimes. However, I am checking in after day 4. Iā€™m still going.

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Checking in after day 5.

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As long as the crutch is needed, keep on using it! We are all in a process of healing, and depending on the depth of the ailment you will need different medicaments :wink:

I donā€™t think Iā€™ll be looking up this forum anymore today - so Iā€™m already checking in days 5 and 6, even though Iā€™m 4 hours shortā€¦
Iā€™ll also try to promote some new attitude - it might be 6 days since my last fall into the swamp of PMO, but Iā€™m also on a journey thatā€™s already 331 days long!

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Thats a great attitude, keep it up!

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Day 1
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Check-in
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Checking in after day 6. Good stuff, letā€™s go! Iā€™m staying positive, and Iā€™m trying to keep that Easy Peasy mindset.

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Checking in after day 7. One week clean, Godā€™s favorite number. Feeling good.

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OK Guys! Days 7 and 8, going forward and to be honest - life is beautiful! Iā€™m getting to know new people, living temporarile next to a couple with a young child, and got to know their friends - they met at a birth-giving school (hell, how is it called?), today met some awesome person who just out of nowhere decided, that it would really be awesome if I came to visitā€¦

Hey, lifeā€™s brilliant - go out and use it!

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Checking in after day 8. Life definitely is beautiful. Good stuff, somebody

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Checking in after day 9.

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Hey Donan, there arenā€™t any more leaders here. You can join and run your own score if you want.

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Checking in after day 10. Today was hard, and I had some urges. I eventually remembered how glad I was to be free from that crap, and I moved on. This happened several times. I did act on the urges a little bit, but I didnā€™t look anything up. All I know is that the little monster inside me is still clinging for dear life. I donā€™t want to feed it and grease those waterslides. Tomorrow will be better, because Iā€™m getting better.

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Today I reset my streak. I donā€™t really feel like I relapsed. I just slipped up. I made a mistake. And I canā€™t pretend Iā€™m not upset about it. Of course I didnā€™t enjoy making this mistake. But I donā€™t feel like a PMOer again. I didnā€™t look at porn. I donā€™t really feel like going in detail, but basically I fapped to the notion of fapping. I didnā€™t even really think lustful thoughts. At least, not while it was happening. Anyways, I just need to not fap again. Itā€™s as simple as that. There is no benefit to masturbation. It deprives me of energy and confidence, and there are many benefits of semen retention. I will not do it again because I do not want to. I am glad to have that clear in my mind. Even though my counter is at day 0, I feel better than I usually do on day 0. I am coming out of a swamp, and I have learned a new lesson.

Does anyone have any advice for dealing with urges to masturbate without porn?

I donā€™t know if anyone is reading my posts, but Iā€™ve decided I might take a break from these forums. After reading this article, Iā€™ve learned that fear may be the real reason I am relapsing even after adapting the Easy Peasy Way. In fact, I think itā€™s the reason most people here keep relapsing. This is the article I read: Why You're Relapsing: : pmohackbook

And here is another article that might help to understand the fear trap: For Those Still Slipping
That article has a few sections on fear.

Iā€™m going to keep studying the Easy Peasy Way, and making sure Iā€™m not missing anything. Iā€™m going to reread it and get it clear in my head. I want to be free from this poison. Iā€™m also going to try to become less addicted to social media and technology. Itā€™s just another lifestyle change I want to work on.

The reason I made this post is so that maybe you all can learn from it as well. Iā€™m still trying to learn, and I donā€™t really know everything. So if you guys have any insight, please let me know.

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So I know Iā€™m really the only one chatting here, but I didnā€™t feel like creating a whole separate discussion for this. Basically, I think I finally found the reason I keep relapsing even after killing the big monster. When I relapsed yesterday, it was because of the little monster. Not the big monster. My brain wanted a fix even though I already killed the brainwashing. This is the article: Resources | EasyPeasy

Iā€™m going to try using the AVRT and see how it goes. For those of you who havenā€™t heard of it, I highly recommend trying it. It seems legit. Checking in after day 1 by the way! I might check in day 2 or I might wait a bit. It honestly doesnā€™t matter, because Iā€™m sure Iā€™m free. I will make it to day 90 and beyond, and you guys will too!

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