Journey of redemption

Ohh…I get you bro!
Btw, what are you upto now…
You were preparing for NEET, right?..

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15/09/2022

The day was pretty normal for me…
Morning went usual…got into work, then something got into me…
A deep sense of FOMO for PMO and I slipped up…
It was pretty bad and I relapsed…
Now, I am afraid of this FOMO…there was barely any urges to begin with…

So, I have to somehow try to resist this fomo and keep myself sane…if someone has any tips do share it!!

In the evening, I watched twilight on my terrace and when mosquitoes came up and I got inside the house…

I had my dinner and then at the night, I went up again and watched some stars…it felt good…
I washed my clothes which was pending from 2 days…
Now I am preparing to sleep…and planning to go to temple tomorrow…
I need some spiritual strength to continue…

That’s it for today.
Good Night :sleeping:
Hare Krishna :pray:

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Paste this pic in the wall and read it when FOMO appears :wink:

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Nice idea actually!!
I have this image in my gallery now…
I will view this daily as a reminder.

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16/09/2022

A good day for once.
As planned, I woke up around 5-5:15 and got ready to go to temple.
I had the Gmaps but had no clue about transportation, i.e local bus timings and all…

So it was sort of an adventure for me, to ask people and stop at designated place to catch the bus…and I had to change bus twice to reach that place.

My confidence has slightly gone up by today’s journey.
Luckily, I reached every place, just in time.
The bus stops, when the bus was about to reach…
The temple, to witness an amazing arch vigraha yatra.
Also got back 7-8 minutes before my work started.

My only plan was to leave home on time and rest all things keep falling in places as I moved…
Bhagwan ki kripa mil geyi aaj!

Did my work and in the evening, I went out to buy some snack for my work place…as I will be returning back…
I came back and spent some time with my grandparents…showed them photos of my work place and all…

Then I went to terrace to watch stars and it was night time by then.
There were soo many stars today!
I saw a satellite as well and a shooting star!!
Scorpion constellation was clearly visible…

I felt like crying and smiling at the same time…
It was soo good…the feeling I got…I want to have a good stargazing…
If I ever get to witness that, I might cry with the sheer joy of witnessing a tiny spark of this beautiful creation…
The creation is the external energy of God and to witness a part of it, like a proper stargazing will be soo amazing!

Then I packed my stuffs and saw that the red ants infested the biscuits that I planned to take with me…
They were soo aggressive that they somehow made a hole in the packet and got in…

Out of 3 packets I had to throw 2…as I accidently spilled water inside and the biscuits got soggy…

I had my dinner and now winding down to go to sleep.
I want to watch stars again but I am feeling really tired…
Anyways, tomorrow I will be leaving my native place and travelling back…
I pray for an adventurous and safe journey…

That’s it for today.
Good Night :sleeping:
Hare Krishna :pray:

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18/09/2022

I am back at my work place and idk why, it feels good to be back here…
Today, I just chilled out and now I have a lot to do…
I haven’t even unpacked… :sweat_smile:

So tomm, I have to wake up early and organize everything properly…
Going to sleep now… :sleeping:

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24/09/2022

Today, after soo long, I feel fulfilled…
I attended one cultural program and I realized, I have been missing out on art…
However scientific we may become…we can’t be satisfied without art…
I got the art in the form of song and dance…
I enjoyed it deeply…to the core…

Now, one thing I noticed is…after some highly satifying day…I relapse the following days…
Mostly its because of brain’s craving for high dopamine consistently…
Real life doesn’t get such situations daily…so I need to be aware about it…

Tomm is Sunday…so it can be a challenge…but now I don’t want to fall in a trap I am aware of…

I am going to sleep now…and wake up early…
Early morning meditation can bring wonders…I used to do that before but its been some time…

So that’s it for today.
Good Night :sleeping:
Hare Krishna :pray:

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26/09/2022

Lots of chaos going on in life…
Slowly I have to set everything properly…
I arranged somethings in my room today…
From 2 days, I am oversleeping…dunno why…the sleep quota suddenly increased…

Also, today I realized I am not drinking enough water lately…I could have fainted today due to dehydration and skipping breakfast…
That’s enough ignoring basic body needs…
I have got some dry fruits and will eat that daily…

I am going to wake up on time now!!
Going to sleep in few minutes!
Will update here if I woke up on time tomm…

I read a quote today…“Failure is an event, not a person”
That hit me in the right place!
I am just a few steps behind living a well balanced progressive life…and now I am not going to hesitate with the fear of WhatIf it goes wrong…I am going straight for the work…

Let me fall down…let me get injured…let me get embarassed for a wrong decision…atleast that will get me closer to what I need to do…and is 1000 times better than being in a state that I am in now…

So I am gonna do what I had think to do…
No more hesitation…

1st step - Wake up at 5am in this week
Unless I cross this first step moving forward is difficult…
So tomorrow, wake up before 6am…even a minute before is fine…but have to wake up before 6am!

Good Night :sleeping:
Hare Krishna :pray:

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Vasudevam sutam devam
Kansa chanura mardana
Devaki paramananda
Krishnavande jagadgurum

Jai Sri Krishna

Jai Sri Hari Narayana

Jai Sri Vishnu

Hara hara Mahadev

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28/09/2022

I did it…
I woke up before 6 today…around 5:50 am
I did exercise and the fatigue I felt after that was really good…I kinda missed that coz I have been only getting mental fatigue…

Also, I did meditation after few days…that was a bonus.
So tomm as well I want to continue that.

Mental control to gain physical control.

That’s it for today.
Good Night :sleeping:
Hare Krishna :pray:

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7/10/2022

Half a month sober now…
It feels good. Major credit.goes to the spiritual trip I went for a few days!
That helped me gain some footing on this journey…

Now with all the divine experience I carry, its upto me to push myself further without slipping…

I almost felt like my old self in the past few days…
So its not lost…I have it inside me…its covered with shame and guilt…only way to uncover it is through good actions…

Do so much good things that the bad things becomes relatively negligible…

Hare Krishna :pray:

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The way I see it, if you want the rainbow you got to put up with the rain

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@the_resilient_one

Hello bro ? Where are you ? Hope you are going well.

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Its been 84 years ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎

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