Day 46: meh, feel a bit cut today. Here’s what happened.
I was at this causal group meet up thing. Since I was on my way to work afterwards, I look pretty daggy, including my hair, style and maybe hygiene slacked off on a bit.
The moment I arrive, there was this cute girl and she was all over me at the start, following ne around and talking to me, untill…
This conventionally better looking, better dressed younger guy shows up 
She was over him after that. Because she was outgoing (and drinking) it was obvious to see the shift, now, I won’t lie, it did throw me off and I felt pretty bad. Still a bit cut, but I had my little cry and ended up having a good time anyway.
It feeds into my theory but, that no matter how much attraction you have, women need a green light for the conventional stuff.
The energy is there to help you overcome the conventionally, but in the end, unless I can find the secret hack (if it even exists) to make the energy even counter that, conventional looks etc seems to win.
It’s a sad fact, but I saw it first hand.
I’m also a bit unhappy with myself about how thrown off this girl made me. I think it was due to the sudden shift, going from showing me so much attention, to completely cutting it off.
That’s definately a me problem, and I’ll keep looking for the secret sauce too.
Might get another chance to meet this girl in a couple of weeks. Let’s see how it goes.