Day 131
So, all the positives of No PMO, I can put it as one thing, its being the best version of yourself, there’s no doubt. It may not be curing you from stuff, but it will definitely give you the confidence to manage things on your own. It will give you more time to do more things, more time to think about yourself and how you can be better. It just gives you that focus to do things differently, that vision to look at the bigger picture. I think, everything I have mentioned also depends on you. The more issues you have, more difference you could see in yourself. If you perfect in every other part of your life, atleast you got out of a bad habit, right? And the benefits are not really for the show, but its mostly how you feel. It takes away the mental weight that you have been putting on yourself that we are helpless to stop this PMO, that we are addicts. Less weight, more vision, right?
But what it doesn’t do is, freeing you from PMO permanently. Because everytime you are in the mood, you will definitely think about fapping, especially when there is no partner around you. Thats just how we are. Just like we look at a sweet and we immediately want to eat it. But then we tell to ourselves, come on, you will put on weight, avoid it. Similarly, I tell myself, again you will go back to being how you used to be, which means that weight on myself mentally starts again, which means less vision, and all that is not fun. Because lust drives that side of me, and now, I drive myself. Amd why would I want to give the power to an addiction? So I say no thanks. Because I would prefer to be free than being in handcuffs. So quitting PMO for 100 or 200 days doesn’t mean you are not going to think of PMO ever again, but those 200 days will show you enough benefits to keep going in this path. As a result, it gets easier to say no. The longer you stay, easier it gets.
To be honest, I am scared of relapse. And everyone has to be. Because a relapse will take you through a chain of events, reminding you how fun everything is used to be. The weight increases over time, and lust drives us again… Ultimately, no gain earned. Its really hard to go through all those urges we have been through again.
So. Any one under 100 days, this is my message to you.
Things are getting hard? You want to relapse? Then think about last 3 days or week or month of all that you have experienced. Its hard, isn’t it? So you relapse now, but you will be quitting again, I am damn sure of that. Because when that mental weight returns, you will most definitely restart this no PMO. Then, you will have to go through that 3 days or a month again, for the second time. Do you really want to relapse? Or do you want to hold on for a bit more, may be 3 more days or a week more or a month more until you cross this stage? The benefits are waiting, the urges are going to get easier, then its a lifestyle.