I've never seen something stronger than porn addiction

Hello. I am 19 years old student. I’m junior at the Yerevan State University. It’s 6 years I’m deeply addicted to porn. I’ve never had a girlfriend, never had a sex, never kissed a girl… 11 stupid years at school had passed, when I started university. People say enjoy your university days. Well my university started with a tutor who sat out the prison for rape article… I’ve seen no good tutors and professors still. 2,5 years of university, and I don’t remember a good day. Actually there were no good days. And I don’t think I will, because they want to suspend me for my grades and my absences. I have nothing good to remember in the future. I think this is my last letter, because I’m gonna die very soon. I don’t want all these…

Hey man, you are 19 yo, I’m 30 and I didn’t had a girlfriend for 10 years. I was lowest of the lowest, with my soul and mind shuttered. But I don’t allow this to beat me. I know porn is champion of the world at destroying lifes and we are underdogs, and we hungry for our freedom and happiness, we can beat this man, don’t give up yourself. Please

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I’m tired of fighting

At 19, I bear this plague for 15 years I’m only on 20 days streak, but I feel like I’m back to life, don’t let that break your will, because that’s porn owners plan actually.

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Levonad, I understand what you mean when you say that you are tired of fighting. This addiction is tough. School isn’t easy either. I’m sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time. I want you to know that I believe that you are a valuable person. We are here to support you and help you.

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Brother I can feel your pain… I also tried to end my life multiple of times, when I was 17 and also few months back… I was hopeless… I did not see any good in anything, always angry, not enjoying company of everyone… Tomorrow seemed dark, I did not know what to do… I went out to find that I was alone… The fault was not in me… But in this addiction… Porn addiction makes your soul empty… You are trapped in a loop… I was sick and tired of this addiction and tried to quit it thousands of time but everytime I tried and failed and it made me weak… I can go on on saying about that…
But brother @Levonad you are not alone this is a great community… You can see bright things only if you try to get out of this porn shit… You are only 19 and you know how bad porn is for you… That’s really great brother… Most people don’t realize until years have passed by (happened with me)…
This time take charge… We are with you… You can see by the words of our brothers @Mazerunner and @keepFighting, you are not alone…try to break this addiction one step at a time… And I guarantee you by the end of 3 clean days you will see good in everything… And feel much stronger…
Don’t give up brother… Your bright future lies ahed just take charge and stop watching porn…

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@selfconqurer thank you for the words. I will try again.

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@Levonad I think in this situation fits this better…
This is just a message from my side… Hope you’ll understand…

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@Levonad hows the journey going??.. Remember one step at a time, one day at a time…

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Started reading some books. They help to stay busy and focus.

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