Ishida's diary of journey to freedom

Exactly 1 month from today I’m having my birthday. I wish to gift myself of 30 days of no pmo. I want to come out clean and for this I am challenging myself for 30 days. Just completed day 1 and hoping so to continue this and achieve my goal…

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All the best bro!..

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Good initiative … With you all the way

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Thank you bro… With your supports i might achieve it… Thanks

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All the best @Ishida . We support you :partying_face:

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Thanks mate really appreciate it…

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It all starts with day 1! Keep going! Join challenges, make companions
And keep working! You can do it!

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Very true brother… Thnq u

Day 2: completed
Study - 4hrs
Workout - 1hr
Read book - Power over pornography (1hr)
Helped mom with her chores…
I guess today i utilized my time well. Had few urges but they were weak. Handled them easily. Feeling positive nd energetic. Looking forward for tomorrow…

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Day 3: completed
Studied for tomorrow’s exam. Prepared but still nervous due to exams pressure. Hope its going to be good.
Workout: 1 hr
Had urges kicked in during study hrs but didn’t gave up instead diverted my mind watching some motivational videos of life of ex porn users nd how their life got better after giving up porn. So now I’m all charged up nd looking to take on tomorrow…

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yo bro… destroy pmo with one puuuunch!!

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Fight it broh… And all the best for the exam

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Yupp bro it takes only one punch for Saitama to defeat his enemy… U too keep fighting bro…

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Thnq u so much … :blush:

Day 4: completed
Today I had my exam nd it went pretty well. Exhausted from all the stress when I returned I found no one was at home. Usually when no one was around I saw it as a chance to surf porn nd fap. But for the 1st time I didn’t had an inkling of desire to watch porn neither any thoughts of it lingered. Most probably because i prevented them from hovering over my mind.
At evening another interesting incident occurred. I decided to go for a walk nd while I was walking 2 girls crossing opposite to me, smiled at me. Maybe its not a big deal, maybe I’m just exaggerating it too much… But whatever it was it kinda felt good. Maybe I’m exaggerating it because its been a decade someone stranger smiled at me or to be more true after a long time I’m starting to look straight at people’s face because for a long time i avoided looking into them. Maybe because i was so into porn that i forgot to enjoy small but meaningful pleasures of life… I don’t know about the future but I’m enjoying this moment of my life where there is no pmo… Signing out for today… :v:

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Keep up the good work … Meet you at the 30 days endpoint

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@Ishida all the best brother… Wish you success… Cheers… :v:

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Thnq u bro… Yeah I’ll have to keep the promise that I made to myself…

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Thnqu so much… Supports from companion like u makes this journey even more easy…

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Day 5: completed
Workout - 1hr
Read book- power over pornography (1hr)
Motivation videos on no fap- 15 minutes
Cooked new dish (hobby)
Watched anime - Graveyard of fireflies
Today can’t say it was a good day but it was ok. Woke up early couldn’t complete 6hrs of sleep even…did my daily activities thought might be able to take a nap in the evening but had dreams about watching porn nd those porn images flashed. One thing was sure i was resisting even in my sleep trying to avoid those thoughtts nd in that struggle i woke up nd couldn’t get a good nap. After that i was having like a headache or more so like hangover. But I’m starting to see changes in me as for after waking up I didn’t had any urges plus i was in control of my thoughts. I was able to handle which thoughts would remain nd which should be eliminated. Unlike before whenever i had such dreams they were followed by urges nd then porn nd then fapping but not today. Guess I’m getting stronger. I can feel that internally. Whatever despite the headache i worked out nd the pain became a lot less. Hope tonight i can get a good nap… Signing off for today… :v:

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