Not an LGBTQ exactly however I suggest you to read a book. Canβt hurt me by David Goggins.
The essence being same. He was the only black member plenty of times (in college especially) and was repeateadly insulted as βNiggerβ
You will be able to relate. He eventually rose above all the hatred he had in his heart and the hatred of people against him as well. If being different and facing it differently than other people is your issue you should certainly read it